Northstar Vale The habits of my heart

chouse ♥

She looked away, and for a moment Remi thought he had said the wrong thing.
He stood still, biting his tongue until finally the girl spoke, listing what she would be if she had not gone. He interjected almost right after she fell silent again, trying to knock down her idea that because she was gone she could not still be those things. "You are still a big sister and a good daughter" he barked, "just because you're not there does not mean you no longer exist to them - you will always be their daughter" He was trying to tell her as cliché as it may be, that absolutely nothing could break family bonds - which could be as much as a blessing as a curse. There was no thing such and ex-parent, or ex-sibling.

She turned to him again, his eyes tried to welcome hers with warmth but her question caught him off guard. The first thing that jumped to his mind was his sister, Rilke. Yes, holding on to her hurt, but he wasn't sure it would be any less painful to let go. He didn't think he ever could. He had to remind himself that this was not about him. He blinked, after his thoughtful pause, "sometimes you have to live with the hurt i think...and they both do" he hummed, not trying to be a pessimist and bring Chusi down, but also not wanting to fill her with false answers.

Now, looking a little less droopy, the girl scooted towards him, and Remi, guided with instinct alone, dared to reach for her shoulder with his cold nose. He wanted to say something to make her smile, but everything he thought of seemed at last stupid so instead of saying something he opted for doing something to make her smile. He nibbled on her softly, pulling his nose from her just enough so he could see her reaction with his expectant crystalline eyes.