Redhawk Caldera you promised that you'd never leave

Days blended into days. The only highlight had been looking for herbs with Raven, but there had been many more bad moments to overshadow it. Like when @Liffey wanted to play, but Eljay didn't want to. He'd just laid there like a lifeless corpse until she eventually went to find Lagan, but he knew he had hurt her with that. He felt it. He hurt daddy every second of every minute of every hour, and he couldn't take it anymore. Every day hurt so much that Eljay felt he was not going to make it into the next day, but every morning he would just wake up as though nothing had happened. It usually took no more than a few minutes before he would realise the life he was leading. It was headed nowhere. Mommy was never coming back.

It was a few days since he had given up hope. He had done nothing but cry. He'd stayed away even from his siblings and daddy @Elwood . When he awoke in a muddy ditch in the late afternoon, Eljay was shivering all over, cold and starving from eating so little over the past weeks. He didn't even remember what had happened before he went to sleep, didn't know where he was except that it was within Redhawk territory, and he didn't have his minutes of bliss this time. There was nothing but bleak darkness.

He lifted himself to his feet, though he wasn't sure how he managed, and his body heaved from the exertion. He licked his dry lips and leaned down to lick from the muddy puddle he had slept in, because he wasn't sure where he could find water nearby.

As Eljay got into motion to do, well, something (he wasn't sure what yet) he saw black spots dance in front of his vision. Eljay took another few wobbly steps away from the muddy puddle, unsteadily moving forward. He murmured under his breath, "Mommy, is that you?" and then he fell to the ground, unconscious; he was out so fast that he didn't even notice his body hitting the ground.