A Change of Pace

A bit of shock appeared on Hawkeye's face. "Wow, so that's why I haven't heard anything about the Ridge. After my sister and brother-in-law came to the plateau, it was like they didn't exist. I guess that was true after a while." She paused, taking a moment to hear what Thistle had to say about being a new mother. "I was depressed for a long time after I had my litter. They were born and then a few days later my sister died. I think I got stuck in a whirlwind and couldn't get out. I feel better that someone can relate to being sad and moody after giving birth, but I also wish you hadn't gone through that." Hawkeye breathed in and out. "It's not fun," she stated as a fact.

"Wow, yes, the great Sos. So, your family knows Jinx's family? I do not follow Atka, only Sos, though I understand that I should worship both. I have been distracted lately, and that's probably why negative things have been happening in my life. I... I used to hear him talk to me. Jinx called it the Loa, but I know it was Him. I think about Him sometimes, but... I don't know. I am not sure what to do." Hawkeye startled to a stop, realizing she was rambling on and most likely sounded like a lunatic. Who the fuck tells somebody they just met that they hear voices?! She sighed, exasperated.

Her green eyes shifted back and forth over Thistle's face. The dark wolf was confused at what she saw. The sandy wolf was conflicted in feeling hurt and trying to be happy. Hawkeye knew that the she-wolf would have preferred her husband to be solely hers, but she wanted to make two different people happy — even if it meant sacrificing her own happiness. "What about your happiness, Thistle?" If their happiness depletes your own, why are they even happy? she wanted to say. How could a husband hurt his wife in such a way?