Wolf RPG

@Lusa

Ayana's mind was still thinking about her lesson with Burke. Becoming a spy would be a challenge, a challenge she would have to prepare for, but one that she always wanted to take. The weather was mild and a few cluds covered the blue sky. The female thought about how she would meet Lusa, should she ask about her pups right away or act like nothing happened? Ayana still had problems with being social, which annoyed her. She needed to grow up now that she had a plan for her live. It was time to forget the past and move on. It was time to focus on other things. Time for Lusa. Time for the future. You know you can't move on yet. Keep calm.

Ayana picked up Lusa's scent and decided to follow it. She really wanted to meet her friend and see what she could do to help her. Lusa was the first in Blackfeather to make her feel a little bit more at home and she never had any prejudice. It was like Lusa was way too kind for Grimnir anway, who seemed to be her complete opposite. But maybe this was exactly what made them be meant for each other. Ayana smiled. She saw the black female in the distance. However, her smile faded quicky when she got closer to Lusa. She didn't look great, her worries about her sons were very visible and Ayana immediately felt sorry for her. "Lusa", she said softly, brushing her nose through her soft fur to greet the female.

 She had been resting her foot outside the den. She watched Peridot tug at her tail with a blank expression. Lusa wondered if she missed her two brothers. The mother missed them terribly. It made her sick to the bone when she thought of the possible truth. The truth of her puppies, her precious babies, dead. She wouldngo to the ends of the earth to see them.

 She heard her name being called from behind. She didn't have to see who it was. She knew it was Ayana, one of her very few freinds. "Hi Ayana," she answered in a quiet tone.

Ayana didn't know what to think or say. She did not want to hurt Lusa or make her angry, she was her friend and Ayana really wanted her to stay that. Periot was playing while Lusa watched her. Such a lovely pup. Ayana remembered when she carried Periot to the infirmary, the white pup wanted to get back to mum so bad. The female smiled. She watched Periot for a second, thinking about what to say to Lusa. "I don't think I need to ask you how you are. Instead, I want to offer you to talk to me whenever you want.", Ayana said, looking in Lusa's eyes which seemed like they were full of sadness and anger. The golden wolf obviously didn't know what it feels like to lose a pup, but she remembered how her father reacted when he noticed that his son had disappeared. She sat down next to Lusa.

"Listen, if there's anything I can do, I will do that. I promise. Burke recently trained me and two other females to be a spy so I need to control the borders anyway, maybe I can look for Ohen meanhwile." Ayana shook her head, knowing that this probably wouldn't help. But she didn't know what else to do. Her eyes rested on Lusa. This was the first time Ayana actually felt sorry for a wolf and she didn't even care. Right now it was okay to have feelings. She wanted to be there for Lusa.

The dark female was in no mood to talk. She couldn't meet the eyes of Ayana, so her blue orbs rested on the playing Peridot. "Thanks you... for the offer," she muttered. Lusa didn't know what to say nor knew if she even wanted to say anything. All she wanted were her sons. Nothing else could make her happier.

Ohen.

 She snarled when she heard the name. "He took my child and abandoned us..." She made a short unamused laugh. "Some nerve he has. This is all his fault. If he ever shows his face around here again... it will be my priority to kill him." She didn't even think that he might be lost. Only jumped to the conclusions. She closed her eyes tightly and looked away.

Ayana let out a short sigh. Sometimes she wanted a family, simply to feel like a normal wolf, but now she had to think about that twice. It took a lot of care and worry apparently, which was not one of the golden wolf's strenghts. She looked over to Lusa. The black female reacted to the name Ohen, in a way that Ayana had never expected Lusa to behave. She seemed really aggressive and Ayana didn't know what to think. She didn't know Ohen, so she guessed he wasn't such a good member. However, what if he actually saved her sons?

Ayana took a few steps closer to Lusa and sat down next to her friend. "Have you ever considered that Ohen might have brought your son to safety?", she said, facing Lusa.
She then nodded and looked around. The infirmary was one of the few dry places around, it was dangerous out there. Whole trees fell over during the storm and the water flooded the whole area, turning the many caves into a wet, stinky sewer. It was disgusting.
"There's nothing one can do really, except wait. I can imagine how hard it might be for you. But just look around and think back to the storm. You were hurt and it was so dangerous out there. Maybe Ohen simply knew a safer place. He seemed like a good guy and I'm sure Grim wouldn't have let him take your son without trusting him. And Grim wouldn't even trust me if it wasn't for you. I'm sure they're fine ... I hope.", the golden wolf said. She didn't wait for an answer as Lusa did not really seem very chatty anyway. Instead, she watched Periot for a while. Ayana remembered exactly how she picked up the small white girl to carry her to the dry place. She smiled. Periot reminded her of herself a little. Strong and independent. And not very popular, it seemed. Ayana closed her eyes for a minute and thought about why Ohen and Lusa's son were gone. She was positive that there was a valid reason for their absence.

Have you ever considered that Ohen might have brought your son to safety?


 "No," she stated, thinking over that. As Ayana further explained, it made a bit more sense to her, but not alot. She shook her head. "Grimnir does not trust him. He may trust you a little, but not him." She thought back to the time when Potema was attacked by him. How Ohen attacked her for thinking she had done it. Lusa told Grim about it and now he wants the male dead.

 "Long before you came, Potema was attacked by someone. She is now blind. Ohen thought that I did it or knew who did it, but I didn't." That was a lie. She knew exactly who had done it, but she was still not willing to say it was Grim. "He attacked me. Got my leg really bad. Now I cannot trust him. I'm afraid he wants me to die or something." 

 She glanced at the female. "What better way to get revenge then to kill my child?"

Ayana shook her head. Lusa's words were full of hate, she had never seen her friend like this. The female brushed her nose through Lusa's coat. She wanted to be there for her, but didn't know if Lusa appreciated her being there. She simply wanted to show Lusa how much she meant to her and that she was thankful for her being there for Ayana when she needed a friend. "Is there anything I can do to get your thoughts off this?", Ayana said, knowing that Lusa would deny this question. How could one be distracted when missing a child, which was literally a part of Lusa. Friendship means feelings and feeling mean pain. You're hurt already, you don't want this to get worse. Do not get into this thing. It is Lusa's problem. But it was not only Lusas's thing. It concerned the whole pack, didn't it? A pack member was missing and he took a child.

"Did you speak to Burke? What did he say? I know there is not much he can do about it, but he must have some kind of plan.", Ayana said, suddenly all exicted. What if she could talk to Burke and actually find Lusa's pup as a part of her spy mission? However, soon her dreams were haunted by reality. Nobody knew where the poor pup was and Ayana really could not run around Teekon Wild to find him. It was kind of hopeless, Ayana had to admit. But she did not want to give up. Lusa was her friend after all, and she wanted to comfort her, even if there was not much to do.

"Again, I have no idea what you're going through. But my mother lost a child. My brother was only a child, maybe a year old. She was devastated, but eventually she got over it. She discovered that her child would always be with her, deep in her heart. She even heard his voice sometimes, it was like he gave her advice. She did indeed miss him. A lot, actually. But he's with her, always." Ayana looked at her friend. "But you know, I will not give up, and neither will you. I do not think that Ohen would dare to harm your child, no matter what happened in the past. You're a pack member after all and Burke would never forgive Ohen. I do not think that he would risk that.", the golden wolf said.

Lusa shook her head at Ayana's question. There was nothing to melt away her sorrows, not even the presence of her mate. The whole storm rocked her world. Made her depressed. So depressed that she wished that she could be up in the sky with Yumigami and Amaturasu. The only thing that kept her going was the fact Peridot needed her. Lusa  wouldn't give up on her. Never. 

 "No I haven't. I figured he has better things to attend to. He must care for the whole Pack, not just me." She doubted her own words though. She knew Bruke would care, she just didn't wish to speak to anyone. She wanted to be alone.

 She looked off into the distance, half listening to Ayana and half thinking of her lost pups. Maybe even dead pups. "I hope your right."

The golden female noticed the deep sadness in her friend's words. She knew that no words on this planet would help Lusa, the only thing that could solve her problems were her pups. She needed them. Ayana was hopeless, there was nothing she could do to cheer Lusa up and it upset her a lot. She simply wanted to be there for her friend, but not even the story of her mother had helped. She shook her head and stared down onto her paws. Could she just get up and go find her pups? No, she had thought about that before and the forest was still huge. She would not know where to start and when to finish. It made no sense. If they wanted to go and find them, they would need a team.
Suddenly an idea came to her mind. She knew Lusa would not be impressed, but is was the only thing she could do for her friend.  "You know, Lusa, I am going on a mission soon. I do not know if I am allowed to tell you about it, but I will, because you are basically my closest friend and ... I just want to help you", she said, looking at Lusa who looked sadder than ever. Ayana was extremely upset. In this moment, all  she wanted to do is see the sweet Lusa again, the one that helped her and made her feel at home. It was a dilemma. Her mission would probably not safe Lusa's pups, but it was worth a try. "So this mission probably includes joining another pack for a while. Maybe they have some information about your pups. Or Ohen. And maybe I can try to start something to find your two sons. I will also be a lone wolf for a few days, and I am definitely going to spend those days looking for your childen. I promise. I know it does not sound too promising, but I have no idea what else to do. I just want to see you happy again ... It is breaking my heart to see you like this.", Ayana said slowly.
She stood up and ran her nose through her friend's coat. She would leave her alone now, it did not seem like Lusa was too interested in talking after all. After saying her loving goodbye, Ayana left. Her mind was screaming and she felt extemely sad. Eventually, the female looked back to her friend, before blending in with the shadows and bushes of Blackfeather.