Wolf RPG

Things had settled and Fox's hide was placed on a branch outside the territory. Ferdie didn't want to keep it but he didn't want to waste it either, so it hung on a tree drying with Ferdie's piss all over the tree's base; sending a clear message to other swiftcurrent creek wolves, 'piss off.'

Ferdie strode up to his captives his tail high over his back, a duck in his mouth, He set the duck in front of leaf and turned to Magpie he could only offer her a fresh meal from his belly, it would only have been a few months ago that she was eating meals like that on a regular basis. The meat was thick hunks not long in his gut.

How do you feel little one? he questioned softly, wanting a truthful answer from her but doubting he'd get it

His gaze turned to Leaf and he frowned sadly Sorry Leaf,He apologized honestly I only wanted you here until we can get Fox back. All I want is peace, but if the rest of the pack rejects her as an alpha then this is all for not. I have learned that Fox ran away and did not return to swiftcurrent creek, if they reject Fox then I have no reason to hold you or Magpie here. Nor do I want too. I don't suppose you know where Fox might have gone, was she going anywhere else but here that day? Ferdie sighed and sat down showing leaf he respected her and did not expect her to attack him. Please eat, Sweet Leaf.

Ferdie looked at them both his concern for their well-being real, even if he was only using them as pawns to get to fast track his end-game.

Ferdie lifted his head and stared at her, where did this come from? he cocked his head to the left blinked and sighed, Ferdie stood and backed up, no longer trusting Leaf not to attack him, Bazi lied to you too? then you are going to want to see the pup Bazi claims I attacked, the pup that almost stopped the whole thing before it started. lifting his head slightly he howled for @Nightingale

Ferdie voice turned stern his eyes hardened Leaf-- Do not ask these questions if you are not prepared to listen to the answers and take them to heart. Do not be like the wolves in the story I told you when I first met you. For every word of that 'story' is true.

Ferdie's turned his head to the right, he turned his face away from Leaf in a deferral type manner, Bazi stabbed him over and over each time she told the lie and each time it passed from lips to ears the knives went deeper. Ferdie then looked up at Leaf his eyes filled with pain, his heart breaking yet again, his voice was now flat and sad.

There were three females there, I did not attack Nightingale, I did not attack that pup nor Bazi. I had almost died of a broken heart, and would have if they had just let me be.... I had not been eating barely drinking.... I was in love with Fox and she rebuked me over and over, I don't think she even realized she was doing so. Rebuke was truly the right word there. Ferdie nudged the duck closer as he waited for Nightingale.

after Bones was taken I was even more heart broken with Fox's reactions and with the fact we... I could not save her. I went out to the boarders that day to die; starved and heart broken I wanted nothing more then to die. I forgot there were other wolves that loved me, like Nightingale and perhaps once upon a time, Bazi herself

Ferdie drew a deep breath Nightingale had not made it to them yet so he continued re-living that night in the telling of this story a night he didn't want to go back to
Sky was the name of the third female, she was insubordinate and deliberately refusing to listen to her Beta Bazi to leave the area
Sky also didn't listen to the plea's of Jace whom begged her to leave me alone, for with my broken heart, I was not myself, I was clouded with hurt and pain my mind wanted to die my body ached from the previous battle for Bones.
Their words became a buzz I couldn't hear them anymore... they were little more then forms moving around me,
but then there was a light, a voice that cut through that almost.... Nightingale she spoke to me 'eat,' why eat? Ferdie was lost in his story now unable to tell a lie, He was reliving the moment his eyes no longer focused on anything, distant, The words just coming from him with no stopper from his brain. Though right now a quick movement could snap him of his living nightmare.

eat..... fish? The world is still the buzz is there but... Ferdie gasped slightly like he was physically touched
My skin crawled my shoulder was prodded, something shoved me. Ahh!!! leave me alone I want to be alone, I snapped at the thing that touched me I aimed for ... her white face. 'Sky!' The Dark wolf filled my vision, he took the blow. He took the reigns, I want to die I want be alone, why am I staring at the darkest version of myself.
Ferdie's growl filled the air, then shook himself with a start. Breaking himself of his own reverie Ferdie turned his gaze back to Leaf and continued his story properly

By the time I regained consciousness I was on the ground broken and bloody Bazi had taken Nightingale somewhere safe, Sky left and Jace and I had battled nearly to the death over [size=x-small]a darkness that is[/size]...... Ferdie stopped speaking then it was not his place to tell Leaf about Jace. But he couldn't finish that sentence without revealing it.
After that fight Bazi told us to go to Fox as Jace and I were, broken and bloody. Fox commanded us to senselessly kill each other or at least finish what we started. But we had finished; Jace had saved me from myself. He had become a Du'andris.

We could physically do no more battle that day, yet she commanded it. Without listening to our reasons without listening to submission, when we both refused to kill the other she attacked us and drove us out. We left quietly and never returned EVER.... we moved as far as our broken bodies would allow and made a home here far enough from Swiftcurrent creek; we are not in the rising sun valley we are up on a mountain for god sakes.

Ferdie now waited for Leafs reaction to the whole story. Glancing around for Nightingale, offering her an affectionate smile and lick on the head if and when she got there, his smile for Nightingale would be a true smile not a forced or strained one.

Ferdie looked away once more and drew a deep breath as dropped his feelings for Fox like ashes in the wind. He had since lost his love for the alpha female but stepping back into that day brought along the same heart ache that he felt then.
Now however he felt no anger for Fox no love what he felt for her was worse then hate he felt nothing, Nothing; save for the desire to have her stop her actions toward this pack.

Sky was young and insubordinate she did not realized her actions actually effected those around her to the degree that they did. Ferdie's words were heavy with a double meaning, intending for Leaf to realize that she was affecting Jace in some semblance of the same way.

When it comes to Jace he has admitted to me he feels for you like he has felt for no other. His heart is a precious gift, an exceedingly loyal thing that can be easily broken by the ones they love whether they know they love them or not. Ferdie winced realizing he spoke for more then just Jace hoping she didn't pick up on the word they instead of the word 'he' For Ferdie too was afflicted with the same dark/light heart. A heart and emotions that were more volatile then a regular wolf.

I don't know how you are with Jace because I have never seen the two of you together, however if you think that you might be, then perhaps you just might be.... Ferdie spoke in riddle but he had not other way to answer that politically

Eat please Leaf, you scare me when you don't eat, I.... it's not my intent to make you unhappy here. Ferdie nuzzled Nightingale's ear hoping perhaps Nightingale could convince Leaf to eat

Ferdie did not endeavor to answer Leaf, he cast his eyes to the ground instead. He had done the best he could do by keeping her here, but perhaps in more ways then one he was setting a ball in motion that might just about bring about the undoing of both packs.

This fiery Juliet was going to have to be sent home sooner or later and if he could not get them to eat it would be sooner rather then later. Ferdie had given Jace an opportunity to talk to Leaf he hoped they could sort things out on their own. That alone was the only reason Ferdie had actually made the move to keep Leaf here, Truthfully Leaf was never the bait for Fox nor was Magpie, his heart had only wanted to protect Magpie from Fox's stupidity and if they got Fox out of this then that was just a bonus. So far though Ferdie was not coming out of this situation with any of his plans in working order, the Pup wasn't eating so his attempt to protect/father her was failed and leaf and Jace seemed worse not better from his outsiders opinion. All and all Ferdie felt like a failure, the story of his life, for all the effort he put in he got nothing back out.

Ferdie nudged the duck toward Leaf then with his muzzle then he ushered Nightingale toward the oasis and moved off. But not before he make eye contact and nodded for another member to take the helm of watching the pair.