Profile of Finnick: Quick Facts
Finnick
Played By: Koilada
Basic Info
Full Name: Finnick
Subspecies: Northwestern wolf
Sex: Male
Age: 1.8 years (23rd February 2018)
Birthplace: Skyguard (Outside Teekon Wilds)
At a Glance
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Profile of Finnick: Details
Appearance
Height: 36"
Weight: 134lb

Build:
✿ Tall - long, well-muscled legs
✿ Square-ish and angular in conformation
✿ Soft, rounded facial features
✿ Wide-set, triangular ears
✿ Long, flowy cheek fur
✿ Large, full-furred tail


Voice: Aaron Tveit
✿ Soft in tone
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Personality
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---- [ N E U T R A L ] ----


---| Nervous/Awkward |
Often in a state of nervous anxiousness, Finnick can usually be found with a submissive smile and ears back. He's fidgety and skittish around those he doesn't know, and blurts out whatever he's thinking at the time without filter, then tries to backpedal and explain his thoughts more coherently with little luck. Everything from his speech to his overall demeanour permeates awkwardness, which is something he's quite self-conscious about. While it can be an endearing trait, Finnick is more aware of it being seen as irritating or annoying.


---| Mousy/Bashful |
Finnick is quite shy and timid, and has trouble socialising because of it. He rarely approaches others for conversation, and when he does, it's unassertive and humble. Despite his need for approval and affection, being noticed or praised flusters him and he'll immediately downplay whatever the cause for the reaction, and is reluctant to fully draw eyes to himself.


---| Hopeless Romantic |
While Finnick craves general platonic and familial love, he especially desires romance. He feels as if the love he wishes for can be embodied in a partner that adores him for him and thus does not see him as low as Finn does himself. While he doesn't actively seek out girls for romance - something he'd be too nervous to approach in the first place - Finnick does have a problem with becoming infatuated hard and fast. It is unlikely that he'd ever truly act on his feelings, however, as his need for love conflicts with the deep-rooted idea that he's unworthy of it, ingrained in him by his mother.



---- [ P O S I T I V E ] ----

---| Kind-hearted/Empathetic |
Despite his anxious demeanour and his lacklustre upbringing, Finnick is actually a remarkably warm and caring wolf, once you get to know him. He's the sort to put the needs of his companions beyond his own, and will dutifully tend to the desires of those he's close too, or those in need, without complaint. While his past might have jaded another to the emotions of others, it instead only made Finnick more sympathetic and compassionate. He is a wolf with great empathy towards those who need it. He makes a great effort to comfort his friends in their time of strife, and his quietness makes him great at just listening when it's needed.


---| Humble |
Although he comes from noble origins, his attitude may dictate otherwise. Modest and unpresuming, Finnick does not place himself above others, and doesn't find much concern when it comes to interacting outside his supposed social class. He treats those Skyguard deemed "dirt-blooded" wolves as kindly as he would anyone else, even to the point that he depreciates himself and his accomplishments under their eye as well. He is slow to take praise, finding himself unworthy of it, and is much happier complimenting others on their own achievements.


---| Affectionate |
If you're known well enough, Finnick is a remarkably affectionate and loving wolf. While affection to or from him is a cause for flustering and embarrassment from anyone he's not familiar with, beyond the boundaries of his awkward exterior, Finnick's the sort who just likes to be close to those he loves, with soft, tender touches here and there. He revels in these small moments, and they're something he keeps dear to his heart




---- [ N E G A T I V E ] ----

---| Submissive/Resigned |
Finnick is a wolf unlikely to fight for pride or opinion. His timid and self-conscious nature causes him to immediately default to others' authority, making him particularly susceptible to bullying, as he'll just sit, head low, and take all venomous words thrown at him, thinking them true. This also means he rarely stands up for himself in a physical fight, allowing more aggressive wolves to attack him without defence - in fact, you're more likely to find him apologising for whatever slight he believes he's made to result in such aggression.


---| Self-conscious/Lacks Self-worth |
If there's a wolf that thinks lower of themselves than Finnick, they would be extremely hard to find. His mother's treatment of him during most of his life has ingrained so little self-worth within him that he near-constantly feels ashamed of himself and unworthy of his noble-blooded heritage. Almost every trait of his personality can be rooted back to this one, simple seed.


---| Lovesick/Craves Approval |
Finnick craves love and approval to an unhealthy degree. Starved of both from a young age, he compulsively, subconsciously, seeks validation and affection from his peers and loved ones, and greatly fears rejection. Due to both this fear and his immanent lack of self-worth, Finnick rarely makes a move to voice or act on his own emotions, feeling as if his packmates already hold a negative opinion of him and that he is inherently unlovable. Still, he wishes nothing more than to please Skyguard and do justice to his bloodline, but he lacks the willpower to do so.

Biography


Finnick's tale begins in Skyguard, a heavily monarchal pack that prized bloodlines over all else, believing they were the children of the Sky herself.

Like many wolves of noble birth, he was born from an arranged marriage, but one of mutual amicability and tolerance it was not. His mother, a monochromatic beauty of grey and white known as Coventina, had fallen in love with a Wolfsguard called Cerdic and the feeling was reciprocated. On multiple occasions, the lovelorn noble pleaded with her father to allow them to wed but every time he refused, for he had a better prospect in mind. Alfrick, yet another strapping young Wolfsguard and the Monarch's sister, Selphy's, son had been noted to cast mooning eyes at his daughter from afar. Her father would've been a fool not to play into such an advantageous opportunity, but Coventina had little care for social climbing.

Often, the she-wolf would creep away with her star-crossed lover, even after Alfrick was approached by her father with the offer of
marriage. When the king's blessing was given, in an act of angered rebellion she began to steal away into the night with Cerdic, their shared nights cradled in warmth and intimacy. Coventina hoped their frequent unions would bear fruit, convinced that pregnancy would force her father to marry her to Cerdic in fear of shame.

Oh, how very wrong she was.

Enraged by the news, she was dragged her kicking and wailing to a secluded alcove in the mountains and forced by her sire to be rid of her burden. Her stomach stabbed and twisted in excruciating pain unlike anything she'd ever felt, but Cerdic's pups were gone, and no physical scars could hope to compare to that.

Soon after she was married to Alfrick, but despite this, she refused to bond with her new husband, and instead festering spite grew for his attraction to her; after all, it cost her Cerdic and his pups.
Eager to make the relationship work, Alfrick suggested pups of their own, feeling that it may help their love flourish, but as Coventina all but loathed him, she refused the idea. Her parents were furious, threatening to disown her and strip her of her status if she denied the litter, so, pressured, she soon fell pregnant.

Thus Finnick was born. Whelped early, he was the only surviving pup in his litter, and he looked remarkably like his father.

His parents' relationship, contrary to Alfrick's expectations failed to improve with his birth, and Coventina's bond with her son was sour from the start. Still traumatised and scarred by the forced loss of her first litter and her distaste for her marriage to Alfrick, Coventina was barely motherly to Finnick, her treatment icy in every sense of the word. The only affection he received was when he was young and nursing, after which he was forced to sleep on the far end of the den, away from her. His mewled cries and attempts to cuddle at her stomach were only met with teeth clamped roughly into his scruff before he found himself dropped upon the stone, once more separated from his mother.

His relationship with his father and grandmother, Selphy, were much better, both trying to compensate for the love his mother refused him from birth, but the love of a father could not replace his mother's, which he began to crave with every breath as he grew.

As Finnick began talking, walking, and thinking beyond the primal instinct of a newborn, Coventina's disdain only became more intense. His mother regularly put him down, spitting hurtful phrases and criticising his every move and word. This abuse damaged little Finnick greatly, encouraging shyness speckled with a mousey demeanour and rapid heartbeats of anxiety, ever fearful of the judgement of others within the pack - because if his mother said so, it must be true, right?
That was the only reason his naive mind could comprehend her treatment towards him.

If anyone knew what was going on, Finnick never saw them act on it; perhaps they did not see it as their place to, or maybe in the swell of nobility they thought he was too soft, too weak and too fragile to hold the high-blood in his veins. Coventina's treatment would make him strong, they might've decided, mould him into the ideal of a noble male, strapping and gallant. Regardless of whether they did, to Finnick it was a private affair.

Worried and all but ignored by his wife, Alfrick convinced his son that perhaps impressing Coventina would earn her favour. So, Finnick worked for her attention, bringing her presents, tidying the den, and whatever else he could manage to gain her approval, but everything he did for his mother was either dismissed, a cold shoulder given as his prize.
Then he heard his mother's disgust at his appearance
And he began to wonder if she'd have loved him if he was born looking like her, rather than Alfrick.

During this time, his only friend was his cousin and Princess, Edain, who would sit upon a hidden ledge with the boy and watch the stars, comforting his woes. Often he thought that he could win his dam' affections by marrying his royal friend, but the feat would be impossible - she was promised to another.

However, his friendship with the princess bore fruit, as one day, at five months old, his mother sought him out for the first time in his life. "There's one thing he's good for," she told him as she groomed his fur, the near-juvenile revelling in the feel of her warm tongue against his coat - the first time she'd been so intimate since he'd suckled.
She informed him that the King was seeking a betrothal for his second daughter, Edain's sister, and so she sent him off to impress them both. Finnick, for the first time in his life, felt determined, as if he was finally, finally going to incite pride within his mother... but his anxiety and nervousness were, as he feared, hardly impressing, and his cousin was engaged to someone else. This failure only brought more scorn from his mother, as he couldn't even be a good suitor.

Tragedy struck a month later, when Alfrick and Cerdic were sent on patrol together. Finnick's father promised him that he'd be back as quickly as he could manage, hoping to calm his fretting son, and Finnick believed him.
But his lifted heart fell with dread when a dishevelled Cerdic returned not a sunrise later without him, shouting that a band of rouges had ambushed them and severely wounded Alfrick. Seekers and trackers and guards were ordered out in a flurry to retrieve him, but all that remained of poor Aldrick was blood, drank thirstily by the grass it lay upon, and his beloved, now red-soaked feather.

Finnick had never felt more heartbroken in his short life than the moment he ran, his cheeks tear-streaked, to find comfort in his mother's fur, only for her to rise without so much of a passing look towards her grieving son, leaving him to face his sorrow in the den, alone.

Coventina and Cerdic's love for each other was hardly a secret to the wolves of Skyguard, as were their hatred for her marriage and the resulting inability to bond their souls in marriage. With Alfrick's death came a hushed rumour that Cerdic was responsible for the Wolfsguard's disappearance. Such whispers, hampered by a lack of proof, was only pervaded when the two star-crossed lovers were wed soon after.

After the marriage, Coventina ignored her first son, eager to forget the pain the past had saddled on her. After harshly telling the juvenile that he was old enough to live without a mother, she cut all ties, preferring to forget his very existence.

Forever stunted by Coventina's treatment, Finnick's growth into young adulthood was strained to say the least. The damage was done, leaving him with little ability to forge friendships outside of his loyal Edain, who remained by his side even as she grew busy with the duties of royalty, though this did not quell the feeling unworthy of having her, nor others. Thus what few friends he did have were cherished, though the thought that he was undeserving refused to leave.

Everything came to a head when, unable to handle her rejection any more, Finnick once again sought out his mother in a very public confrontation. He screamed and cried and shouted, pleading for her love and whimpering at her paws. The display was shameful, and only when he noticed the many pairs of eyes planted on him did Finnick flee Skyguard.

For a week he wandered the border, wanting desperately to return home, but too ashamed and fearful to do so.

And it was that shame that finally caused the nervous male to leave.
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