It was cold, too cold.  She wanted to stop, but something told her to keep going until suddenly she found herself on the once special place where she had once stargazed with Steady.  Suddenly before her she saw herself and Steady.  "You have his big heart."  Odie caught Steady say then listened as she heard herself reply innocently if having a big heart was good or bad.

Steady explained.

The scene shifted and now she saw a different memory replaying before her.  One of her and Stoic.  Pain shot through her and a whine escaped her.  Her Brother was quickly at her side licking the wound.  "Okay?"  he asked her.

The scene shifted again.

Her Mothers body lay before her.  Stoic sobbed, tear soaking into his fur.  Then he was running away from her as she stared down horrified at the meat of her Mother that Steady had placed before her... never had she felt so alone in her life.

She ran.

Odette woke with a startled gasp, although soon after sent a worried glance around her, hoping she hadn't woken anyone up.  She wasn't entirely sure, but didn't think so.  She tried to close her eyes again, but more images of the past plagued her mind so instead she carefully and quietly stood before padding away from the others.

The moon shone brightly in the sky and Odie found herself silent, when suddenly an urge shot through ehr and she was running.  Speeding like a bullet.  She ran so fast that she didn't notice the root that stood curled and cruel before her.  She yelped as she tripped, falling forward into a heap.

She began to sob.

Her whole body racked with her sobs, as she trembled in her heap.

She missed her family.

She continued to sob.

Ad she did she thought of her brothers and sister.  What would they think of her to see her now?  Would they have laughed at her?  Comforted her?  She didn't know, because she was without them now.  Sure, she did have Sebastian, Pearl, the pups on the way and Broken Antler Fen.  Yet sometimes she wished that she could have what had once had.

She wanted her family back.

So when Pearl came to the scene Odette did not notice her at first as she cited there, feeling broken.  When she heard Pearl's soft spoken words though she turned her head, trying to blink back the tears and swallow the limp within her throat.

"I miss my family."

Her Father was quick to arrive, next to her Mother.  Sebastian nudged her cheek which comforted her a little, but still a tremble slide shakily through Odie's body, a whine escaping her.  Slowly though she was able to control her trembling to a small shake, watching her parents with a sad gaze.

"I dreamt about some memories last night... from Silvertip."  She didn't go into it much further, hoping her gaze would be able to tell the most of it.  For the memories were painful reminders of what could have been and what had taken it all away.

Her parents were kind about it, but still Odie found questions running through her head.

What would have happened had she stayed at Silvertip?  What if Solemn, her Mother and Father had lived?  Were Stoic and Adeline safe?  Were they safe or were they all alone?  She took a deep shaky breath trying to clear the pestering thoughts in her head, but of course that didn't help all that much as her thought process about all this just kept on coming.

For a long moment Odette was silent and for a moment she was about to speak, but then stopped herself unsure of what she would even say.  As a matter of fact she didn't really feel like speaking right now, she just wanted to be around her family.

So quiet she was.

While Dad had a point she was unsure whether or not she could even handle going back to that place, all the memories it could flash back at her.  Still maybe it would be good for her to go back just for a visit to go see her Father's grave along with June's and Solemn's.  The only thing was she wasn't sure whether they had even buried her Mother or not and if so where?  She could ask someone when she got there.

No matter what discion was made though, Odie would need time to think about it.

She brightened up a little bit to here Pearl call her pumpkin, while she wasn't sure why, being called names like that just made her feel home.  Like she still had a Mother and in a way she did, Pearl.  For a moment Odie was silent, but finally words began to slip from her mouth.  "Alright... but I'll need time to think."  She told them quietly.

Their words comforted her and she felt safer and safer as time pasted by.  A small yawn escaped her and she decided that it would probably be a good idea to head back and fall back asleep.  Hopefully not wake up anyone else in the process.

"It's late... I'm sorry I woke you guys up but I think I needed this so... thank you.  It'd probably be a good idea to head back though... go get some sleep."  She told them both a little sheepishly, with yet another yawn.