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never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 20, 2014 I went ahead and marked this as private for @Jinx for now. :-) Also, it's been so long since I've written a puppy - been using 'Souls Puppy Guide for reference but it's going to take a bit to get the hang of again. xD Also, no need to match the length I got carried away. “Are we there yet?!” Ira demanded raucously, squinting his eyes at the sand colored elder that limped a few paces ahead of him, attempting to burn a hole in the scarred, graying man’s butt. Given a choice, Ira would have chosen to try to burn a hole by a look to the back of the man’s head, but something the elder called ‘arthritis’ - whatever that was aside from something the elder like to complain about, much to Ira’s chagrin - made it painful for him to raise his head for more than a few moments at a time. Patience was not a virtue that Ira possessed, especially not as a child, when his attention span wavered and motivations changed abruptly and usually without much warning. Ira let out an irritated huff, and picked his pace to a trot, easily catching up the elder, though it took several quick steps to keep up with a single step of the once tall and proud warrior; though if ‘Tark’ the name that Ira knew him as, had once been something proud and majestic it was long dead. Tark was practically a cripple, half deaf, and ill. At least, that was what Ira had heard when he had been eavesdropping on his Uncle and the medic. That had been before the abrupt disappearance of his parents and the attack from a rival pack. Abandoned and left to die, Tark had found him and led Ira away. “Hey!”, Ira demanded, “I was talking to you.” He snapped impudently at Tark who stopped suddenly - as to which caused Ira narrowly avoid slamming into the elder’s left, front leg. “What, child?” Tark asked with a heavy sigh, that caused Ira to glare at him once more, eyes of youthful milky blue studying the grotesque, tattered left ear (since that was what his eyes were automatically drawn too) as Tark turned his body to the side to glimpse at him. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 20, 2014 OOC: It's okay me too >_> <style type="text/css">q {font:13px Georgia; color:#9E0853; font-weight:bold;}</style>IC: The prior day, Jinx's wound had been cleaned and tended to by Pied, loath as the Kesuk was to admit her gratitude. That night, she managed fitful sleep without her wound to worry about, during which she dreamed. She strode across a wind-bitten tundra, over scalloped ice that crackled with a layer of frost. A stream would have bubbled nearby, but its waters were sheathed in blistered ice, inaccessible to the wolf. Her tongue snaked over dry lips, which she smacked hopelessly with a frown. For miles around there was nothing but ice; in the far distance, she could spot the vague outline of mountain peaks, but they were much too far for her to reach, especially while thirsty. Jinx therefore turned opposite the mountains, and strode away from them, in search of fresh water. Snow could be melted for drinking, but it was inefficient, and harboured bacteria and other oddities that running water didn't. Besides, she was in unfamiliar territory... And it was so vivid, she didn't consider that it might actually be a dream. Horizon Ridge seemed like something far off and forgotten, a dream itself even though she slept safely within its borders, and this was reality. As she proceeded east, she came across a bundle of fur huddled on the ice. She approached with head hung low and ears thrust forward. She held her tail alertly out behind her, uncertain what she would find when she reached it. What the Kesuk woman found when she drew near was a pup, with fur as pure and white as the snow that sparkled around it. A silver overlay gave it the same mystical, shining quality. She reached out her nose to touch the downy coat, with a rumble of uncertainty—perhaps she would eat it, and lick its blood in place of water—but when her nose touched its body, the pup turned and fixed her with impossibly blue eyes. She was assaulted with a jolt of searing pain through her skull when she met those eyes, and she stumbled back, crying out with pain. Take it, whispered a voice, clear as spring water in her ears, and yet a muddled mix of female and male. Take it and raise it up. The words seemed to come from the pup, but its lips did not part for an instant. It embodies usss, hissed another malefemale voice. Behind Jinx towered two bears, one a polar bear with matted black fur, and the other a black bear with soft, white fur. The pup in front of her suddenly darted between her legs, in their direction, and as its gaze dropped from her, the pain subsided. Jinx could now feel their presence; her spine prickled, and when she turned around... Her eyes sprung open and her breathing quickened as she woke. Her hackles were raised even as her sleep fled her, and her feet were beneath her in an instant as she rose beneath the sequoias of Horizon Ridge, alert all of a sudden. An ache in her neck reminded her she wasn't yet healed, and her ribs protested the sudden movement, but Jinx bit back the bile that rose with the pain. Something was amiss. With an almost supernatural accuracy, Jinx spun about, as though to follow the dream pup that had gone between her legs. She trailed through the forest in that direction, scarcely deviating from her path but to swing around trees and dodge broken logs, and before long she found them, though she couldn't have known they would be there: an elderly wolf, prone in the snow with his breath rattling brokenly in his throat, and it. The child. The pure white fur, the silver overlay, and the eyes, blue as copper chloride. Her eyes struck it and remained firmly upon it, and when their gazes touched for a brief instant, there was no searing pain... But the voice was remembered, and she felt the wind dash against her coat, as though to confirm that the voice was to be obeyed (regardless whether it was just stray wind or not, Jinx took it to mean something more). The child was of uncertain gender at the moment, but all would be explained soon. To the elder wolf, she spared no concern. He was on his death bed, but he had a crime to confess, for there was no way in ever-loving hell that he was the pup's father. Atka and Sos were its mother and his father; the cub was gifted, favoured, or something. The vision told all. Or Jinx had simply had a silly dream, and coincidence had made the pups look alike, for the pup in the dream did keenly resemble Nanuq's colours, and Arktos', and so any memory of them could have conjured its appearance... But of course, Jinx was a wolf of faith, and a wolf of faith saw signs where perhaps signs were not. Who are you? Where did you get this child?she sternly asked, her ears pointing sharply to the elder of the pair and her eyes demanding answers of him. Perhaps it was a loa in a wolf's body that guided this "chosen" child to her to, and as it abandoned him, it left his old soul to die. But if that were true, it had brought the pup to her to... What? Discipline and teach how to be a proper wolf? Jinx had no love for anybody but herself, and perhaps her sister Kaskae, whom she respected... And certainly would develop no love for a child. Jinx hated children. But it was her gods' decision, not hers, and she had no choice but to comply. Caring for it was not in her nature, but... Well, she could certainly keep it in check, if that would count in her gods' eyes as doing her duty. RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 21, 2014 Deliberation weighed heavy in Ira as he eyed Tark with unhindered scrutiny, his judgments based on words he perhaps had not fully understood as they had been exchanged not-so-secretly between Red Keep’s chief medic and his uncle in the abysmal dark of the night, when Ira had slipped out of the den he’d shared with his uncle upon his parents’ disappearance, following downwind of his uncle, remembering that when he hunted (or sneaking in Ira’s case that night) he should always stay downwind of his prey, target, et cetera. Uncertainty hung, heavy and suffocating like fog in the air, pressing down on Ira as he took in the grotesque scars that marred Tark, markings of a time once passed, realizing that he had grown to, tentatively as it was, trust Tark. The elder had not led him into a trap, had put up with him and failed to suffocate him in his slumber. Ira’s lips parted to speak, “Hush Ira. Tark snapped before Ira had even gotten the chance to vocalize whatever it had been that he had wanted to say to the dying elder. "I didn’ even say anything!" Ira was quick to jump to his own defense, silver fur that layered the length of his spine, pricking and ruffling in childish indignation. For a second, Ira considered screaming at Tark that he was dismissed, that Ira had no more use for a grumpy old man, but stopped, his temper dissolving as quickly as it had sparked to life at the look of aged sorrow Tark was giving him. Brow furrowed, nostrils flaring, inhaling the sickly scent of Tark, before his nose scrunched in contempt, taking a few steps back from Tark. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 21, 2014 She could feel the child's eyes on her, but for the time being, ignored it. Her focus remained on the old pain, her glare pointed and heated. He introduced himself as a "dying old man" and her lip wrinkled back, dissatisfied with this explanation. For all she knew, he was a pedophile who had stuck his parts in the child, or a pervert for collected children to make them dance and sing for him. Aside from that, Horizon Ridge didn't need a wolf dying on their borders. It would bring unwanted questions, including the cause of the man's death. Anyone could smell the sickness on his living body, but when he died and the scent of decay overtook him, there was nothing to say whether they'd strangled him or poisoned him or what. Though she was not satisfied, she listened as he explained himself. She had no idea what Red Keep was—presumably, something important—nor any idea why she should care what became of the child, but the memory of the voices was soldered into her mind, and she knew she had no choice. Still, it didn't mean she couldn't have fun with it in the meantime... Something she realized when the child's outburst revealed its reluctance. I sssee,she drawled, glancing down at the cub named Ira, who had identified himself by his voice as male. Tark had also confirmed the child's sex, but that made no difference; whether it was male or female, it was still precious to her gods, for some reason. Of course, Jinx would never reveal that... She was long past giving her religion to heathens to twist and pervert. And what, exactly, makes him so... Mmn, important?Tark had, after all, claimed Ira was important, but none of the backstory really explained why, except that he was a little princeling whose parents had been snuffed out. That made him no princeling at all. All the while, Jinx's eyes were turned to the silver-lined youth, anticipating his input when it came to the question of his importance. The child appeared to have a temper, yes, and insolence... Two very compelling traits. Jinx could play puppet master for a wolf with such traits. She could tempt him, tease out those traits and play with them until he was a wolf Sos would be proud of. But first, she had to test them both... And she wanted to strain the old wolf, at least until he relinquished his hold on the cub. Ira would find no love with Jinx, but discipline and food in his belly, sure, she could provide. RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 22, 2014 Tark let out a cough that rattled in his chest, causing Ira to scrunch up his nose. Was it just him or did Tark sound like he was getting worse? When they had fled his cough had been moderate, his energy still fairly good. It seemed to Ira that as soon as they had arrived upon the borders of this…place - where-ever it was that they were - Tark had lost any remaining amounts of energy he’d had. Was losing his more and more of life with every second they lingered there. When the nameless woman turned her attention down to him, Ira did not shy away from her gaze. He had always been brazen, and was not afraid like most pups his age had been. Where they shied behind their parents’ legs, or pointedly avoided eye contact or in some cases conversation, Ira was not accustomed to using anyone as a shield; neither was he adapt at being timid. The woman spoke then, with her eyes still upon Ira, inquiring as to what made him important. Why did there have to be a reason? RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 22, 2014 She chortled when the boy, as expected, piped up in his own defence... But his reason was more lacklustre than she had expected. More importantly, however, was that Tark's reply was also more lacklustre than she had expected. She had thought he would claim Ira was prince of some vast northern pack, and would one day lead them all to utopia. She had thought he would claim Ira was the incarnation of some god, as Cleopatra had been to Isis. As Kaskae embodied Atka, and as Jinx embodied Sos. Perhaps he would claim he was by birthright the ruler of a legion of exceptional wolves with strength and number unquantifiable. But Tark claimed none of these things. What he said instead made Jinx snort incredulously. He is a child. If it were special for children to go unseen, why, we would be beset by miracles all 'round.If anything, she suspected Ira would have had the single greatest advantage in sneaking away: he was little and inconspicuous on the snow. Tark also seemed to toot his own horn, at least in Jinx's negative opinion: yes, Tark had brought Ira, and had saved him and la-dee-da, but it hardly made Ira important. Jinx sighed heavily, and said, you try my patience, old man. Mediocre achievements like brief lone survival do not an important child make. It appears he still requires you, which makes him no more important than mine own ass, which similarly requires me.Whatever the child had to say to that was ignored. But it matters not. It's fortunate for you that my godsss have an interest in this child.Who were these gods? Who cared. She would not share her religion, not ever again... And she knew Sos and Atka were disinterested in whether the boy knew of them or simply grew up as their will intended, which Jinx would see to. He is important, yesss... But not for any reason you give. My gods alone know what greatnessss shines in this one. I have Seen him in my vision.In that, her implication: not only did she covet the child for the favour of her gods, but she would have him. Even if Tark had a sudden bad feeling, she would take Ira by force, for he belonged to Sos and Atka. RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 23, 2014 His defense had been weak, and had inspired a chortle to come from the warrior woman before him. Ira’s eyes narrowed in displeasure, despite that he knew there had been nothing behind it to back up the verification that he was important. He was a Princeling of ruined lands, of a pack that had fled to the winds. Or at least, those that had been lucky enough to flee, at any rate. More than likely, he was the Princeling of chaotic carnage and the dead. What good were the dead to him? Ira had just been about to let her mocking (at least, this was how the child had taken her chortle to be) go, an advantage of his childs’ short attention span (making it obnoxiously hard to hold a grudge of any sort), except for her following words which had been basically been comparing him to her butt. Leathery, black nostrils flared in irritation, as his pupils narrowed to near pinpricks in their pools of milky blue irises, as his eyelids lowered. His lips wrinkled back in his (probably humorous irritation). "I am not like your ass!" Ira spat at her brazenly, not caring in that moment that even injured as she was, she could end his life in a single, fluid moment if she wanted too. The truth of the matter was, he wasn’t afraid. Of her. Of Tark. Of death (not that he fully understood the ramifications of death). RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 23, 2014 Her lips turned up at the pup's remark; he would do wonderfully. Intimacy and concern were reserved for very special wolves in Jinx's life—her sister and her shaman, specifically—but there was some appreciation here for Ira's fire. Had the named loa not fled with the wolves, Ogoun would have found a fierce follower in this one. You are white, fluffy, small, and have an insufferable hole in you,she retorted smartly, shooting a smug smile at the child, as though he were an adult who could be mistreated verbally. I therefore propose you and my ass are one and the same, princeliiing. She was tempted to continue this exchange, finding the child amusing to insult, but the old wolf spoke breathlessly, and then abruptly died before she could say much more about the vision. It might have been hilarious to her, but for the fact he had died on their borders, and was arguably too heavy to drag somewhere else. A cluck of disgust sounded in the back of her throat even as Ira prowled toward the old wolf. Jinx mistook his movement for some kind of grief, so for the moment she remained quiet... Though when he turned to her with an expression as cold and unfeeling as winter itself, she found herself keenly aware of something. This child was not like other children. Had she witnessed death as a child, particularly that of her caretaker (who had been none other than Nutaaq) her eyes would have welled with tears. This child's expression was frigid... Uncaring. In that instant, her need to possess him was solidified. Even if the gods eventually tired of him, or gave her no more guidance regarding his place in their plans, he was different, and that was important enough. Tell me, princeliiing,she said ominously, rising to her full height now that the old wolf had left them, how you came to be so... Cold. Do you not care for your caretaker's passing? RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 24, 2014 "Well I don’t." Ira replied protesting Jinx’s further comparison. He was not like her butt, and that was that. Likely, she would keep thinking that he was, and he would keep thinking he wasn’t and it would be a tiresome verbal game of cat and mouse. If this warrior woman did, indeed, decide to take him in - something in which he wouldn’t protest, Ira was not ignorant and understood without an adult he would not survive very long - he wondered, as briefly as the thought had fluttered into his mind, if it would always be like this. While Ira did not enjoy being insulted, it didn’t really dig further than scratch as his skin until he was mildly irritated. He did not know her - didn’t even know her name - how was he supposed to feel mortally wounded by her insults? Ira had found in the case of Tark, it was easy to not feel anything when you never let anyone in. He had felt detrimentally hurt when his parents had abandoned him (though he now knew they had been killed). Overtop that pain he had felt anger; and after he had cried in isolation in some abandoned den far away from the den he had once shared with his parents, he had vowed no creature would ever hurt him like that again. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 24, 2014 As interesting as the child's attitude was, his insolence would go nowhere so long as Jinx remained in charge of him. She briefly contemplated dropping him on Pied's doorstep without any explanation, but thought better of it; he would not be raised by heathens, even though he himself was unwittingly a heathen. Ira's explanation for his chilly indifference brought a satisfied grin to her lips, leading her to the conclusion that love between them was not only not a requirement, but unwelcome. Gooood,to crooned, having learned herself from a young age the difficulty of loving and admiring anybody. Her sister had more than once toyed with her young naivety, and both her parents had been gone by her half-year mark, and Jinx had never cared deeply for anyone save her siblings and Kiviuq since then. Now, she scarcely cared for them, either. Her obsession with Kaskae was the only reminder of her sister, and it was born of distrust more than love. Love is for the weak,she proclaimed, gesturing for the child to follow her away from the corpse. She supposed if he refused, she would leave him there... Though unbeknownst to her, it was more likely she would scruff him and drag him along. There is no use in allowing love to make you vulnerable. This stranger... Hmm, he knew your parents, or he is a liar.This was said as much to herself as Ira. It is not logical to give one's own safety for love of another,the Kesuk decided then, hoping to impart this focus on self to Ira. Given the option between fighting for the lives of her peers or fleeing with her life intact, Jinx would surely do the latter. Her life weighed more than others', in her mind. RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 26, 2014 For a few moments, there was nothing but Jinx and himself as he stared at her, waiting for her to chide him for being indifferent towards Tark’s death, waiting for her to demand to know what was wrong with him, as other wolves might have. In truth, Ira did not feel like anything was wrong with him, for more or less not caring about the elder’s death. It was just as Ira had told Jinx, he had not known the man, had not loved him or even felt affection towards him. He had been a tool to see him this far. Just as Jinx would be a tool to raise him to adult hood. Or, at least until he was capable of surviving on his own, at any rate. Instead, Jinx seemed pleased by his behavior, the praise smoothing over the child’s fur like a hand reaching down to pet him. Indifference towards the existence of others was good then? So, he wasn’t wrong after all. Despite developing his individuality Ira was still highly impressionable and when he was met with positive reinforcement from Jinx, it would only serve to encourage him to continue such - as it was with any child. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 26, 2014 "Mmmn?" Jinx wondered when Ira claimed to love was to destroy, her head turning to him questioningly. She smirked when he repeated it relative to himself, and with a toss of her head, agreed with, "an interesting concept, princeliiiing, and true indeed." Jinx had loved Kaskae, and the wolves of Shearwater Bay, but in the end her love had been rewarded with the vision of fire consuming all she cared about. She still didn't know if fire had really come or not, but she believed it had. The pain had been absolute when she first thought of it, but it was duller now. "The scavengers can have him. They need to eat too. Crows are our friends, princeling. They show us where to find sick prey, and it is our honour to contribute to their living when we pass." Jinx didn't want to move Tark because he was just too heavy, and she needed her energy for healing and daily activities, but she had never shied from lying. "It will be good for you to know your crows when you are a king," she added, hoping to get some kind of reaction out of him with the thought he might one day actually be king. "I am Jiiinx," she sighed softly, her ears flicking backward at the sound of her own name. "Mambo, if you wish. And you, princeling? You are Ira, but what else are you?" RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 27, 2014 Ira watched Jinx’s reaction to his once coveted mannerism of thinking, not sure what he was expecting, or rather, what he was hoping for from her, only that he was waiting for…something. He watched her contemplate it with ravenous milky blue eyes, before what he more commonly associated with relief wash over him when she told him that it was an ‘interesting concept’. She did not mock him for it, neither did she on what was the opposite end of that spectrum to Ira, attempt to convince him that how he thought was wrong, that love was something to be cherished in an attempt to smother him with something he inherently did not want. Of course, she had said herself to him that she had no tolerance for love (or so this was what Ira chose to take away from it) and Ira had settled contently with the idea that she would not force this destroying emotion, concept - whatever it was - upon him. Lips parted to suck in the cold, stinging air as he drew it within his body, feeling it travel through his windpipes and into his lungs, the sickeningly sweet tickle of decay that was coming from Tark. It was possible he had begun to smell like that even in life, subtly, and that Ira immune by the scent of death, blood and decay that had lingered in the crevices of his lungs even weeks after putting as much distance from Red Keep as they could, had not noticed. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - January 28, 2014 Her strides were long as they delved deeper into the territory, but she didn't consider the child who would have to keep up with her. It was his job to keep up, with his boundless energy, not hers to slow down. Besides, she thought bitterly, walking slowly and leisurely seemed to do less good for her burning injuries than walking relatively briskly did; she could get it over with quickly, rather than prolonging the moments of pain when her skin stretched, or her sides jostled. Ira appeared hooked on the idea of a bird, and although it hadn't been what Jinx meant, she supposed he was right. "Yes, princeling, a king may have whatsoever he wishes... But a crow is the smartest bird. A crow can sense death miles away, and they signal it to their brethren, including wolves." Ravens were more solitary, but also good carrion birds. She did not say anything of ravens. "Jinx is my name, Mambo my title," she clarified, not realizing the source of Ira's confusion. "Just as Ira is your name and Prince your title." When he identified a name he would like to be called, she was reminded of a few similar sounding things: Aktaie, the Siren Queen whose society had been corrupted by a girlchild; Kaskae, Jinx's vicious elder sister who likely still wished she had slain Jinx in her sleep; and Aether, a name she recalled from her mother's mouth, but whose significance was lacking. "Aethon is a good name," she said slowly, "but Ira rings stronger. Where I am from, such a name would sound grand." RE: never kill the light inside me - Ira Nox - January 30, 2014 Wrap this up soon so we can have another/more up-to-date one? :D
Ira simply picked up his pace to keep up with Jinx, adjusting it with little trouble, used to the long legs of adults, and realizing that not all of them would stop and wait patiently for him to stumble along after them. Soon enough his paws would outgrow him and he would struggle to keep up with the free agileness he mustered currently. Ira contemplated her words, remembering that crows were not the only blackbirds he knew of, but found himself unable to tell the difference between a raven and a crow. "How do you know the difference between a raven and a crow?" Ira asked Jinx inquisitively, wondering if she would be able to explain what made them one or the other to him. No one had really stopped to explain the difference to him before - though to be fair he had never thought to ask previously. RE: never kill the light inside me - Jinx - February 05, 2014 OOC: Fading here :D Last post for me! IC: The boy was inquisitive, that much could be said for him. She had once been the same, constantly questioning not only her authority, but also her religious leaders. Granted, Jinx had never been as stubbornly emotionless in her approaches—she had played with her friends and cousins equally, without any of this child's scarred views, a normal and happy child—but she had always been the one to break the mold. Prior to her leadership she had been an Adept, and the lead cub... In truth, she had never quite gotten over Kaskae's arrogance in claiming she was just as entitled to the throne as the hard-working Mambo had been, but it was neither here nor there. "Ravens are bigger, and uglier," she said simply. "Their foreheads are more domed. A crow is a sleeker bird." Someday he would know the difference, she knew, when he witnessed a murder of crows winging overhead whilst ravens squabbled on the ground. Jinx viewed them much like wolves and coyotes: the crow was the wolf, intelligent by design, roaming in packs to increase their joint survival, while the raven was the reclusive coyote that took its chances alone. Her slim shoulders rolled as if to say, I don't care. What he called her was his own decision. He protested his name once more, earning a snide glance from the pale Mambo. "There is nothing girly about a northern name," she said sternly, revealing a brief glimpse into her mind: Jinx had always been a little stung that she had been given such a plain name, when her sister and brother were given strong names that sung of northern blood. Still, Jinx suited her just fine; perhaps Aethon would do the same for the boy. "But if Aethon is what you choose, then so be it. A name is nothing but a way to call you out from a crowd. It is your deedsss that matter." With that, he asked where she came from, and Jinx launched into a description of Shearwater Bay devoid of her Gods' influences for him as she led him back to where she tended to keep all her prized possessions: her den in the sequoia forest. |