Snowforest Taiga at a loss

aw but attn to @Hätiya !!

Once again, Black Hawk finds herself lost. The chaos of past days still a heavy presence in her heart, upon her skin in the form of wounds. An eye now lost to her bitch cousin, her mate gone with her treacherous cousin, her calves in tow. Alone, now that she'd deposited Ishmira and left her for the skilled hands of Winsook. 

An aching heart for children she'd barely knew. Calves she hadn't even been able to hold, to teach, to nurture. Still stuck with the bastard name of Lanzadoii when she felt anything but. A family, a culture, a legacy now dead to her, and she to it. 

A woman so strong and resolute now near to toppling. Of letting the weight of her failures and pain bring her to her knees. It's with dejection she sulks through the taiga, lips pulled into a scowl, her dead eye burning. It bleeds even still, but she would not allow a healer to mend it. 

It was pain she must feel, and that she must embrace.