Moonspear Even Doves have pride

Kinusi laughed. Be careful what you wish for fella. But she felt pleased all the same. It was nice to know that her muchness was not too much, for him. She worried sometimes. Not often frankly. She was a bit self centered that way. Feeling that she was who she was and if you didn't like it too bad. But she was finding out taht wasn't always the best thing. 

She blinked surprised and then her stomach fell in one large swoop and her heart tightened. Just friends. Had seh been reading the signs all wrong. Had everyone. Did he like her sort of sibling Treepie or Tiki. Or maybe that girl Kira. She felt strangely unusual. 

And she felt very very sad, which wasn't something that Kini often felt. And she wasn't sure what to do with the emotion or how to handle it. And though part of her wanted to run far away. She remembered her father always said sometimes the biggest misunderstandings arose from lack of communication. 

she swallowed the sudden lump in her throat and put a smile on her face. Though it flickered. Yea Friends.

A tilt of her head, a twist of her ear. We can be partners. I was thinking more long term things. You know I was even gonna ask you if you wanted kids and the family the whole nine yards. Because everyone seems to assume, I guess even i just assumed. But.

She kicked teh grass and lifted her head. She flung her chin forward. Alright. No sense in hidng behind a possible heartbreak here. I guess. So what do you want Katmai? I was like thinking we were like gonna maybe get to know each other more, fall in love, have some babies if we wanted. But I never really just came out and asked. And well obviously someone needs to ask. 

She smiled then bright and loud like she always did and she waited. Even though her heart was racing and her head hurt. And she wanted to go lick her metaphorical wounds. She knew he was gonna say no. He pretty much just did hadn't he, but she needed a clear no.