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Eljay had caught wind of mommy wanting to take him out to go outriding sometime, and it frightened him, the thought of going out there. Eljay had always been a curious boy, but he was also a scaredy cat and he didn't want to go somewhere where there might be scary things too; where he might not come back from. Mommy had gotten hurt during outriding, and that made it a bad thing in Eljay's eyes. While his panic attacks had gotten less frequent, whenever he thought of the upcoming trip his chest tightened and he grew afraid that something might go wrong.

It would be only a month and a half before Eljay would ascend to the adult ranks, and Eljay felt bad that he wasn't a contributing, good member of the pack yet. He was struggling figuring out who he really was and what sort of things he was good at — most days, he just felt like he was bad at everything that he needed to do to contribute to the pack. Uncle P as well as daddy seemed eager to make him learn the hunter trade, but Eljay wasn't so sure. He was afraid that they would only get their hopes up and be disappointed after.

Today, Eljay had gone to the borders. It was the first time that he went there all by himself, alone. Despite the fact that he was pretty much the size of an adult wolf now, it was evident from the way that he carried himself and moved that he was still very much a puppy at heart. It was frightening to leave daddy and mommy out of sight still, but he had learned to live with it, but to be out and about all by himself was worse. And to top it off, every time Wifi had visited he hadn't been near enough to come see her, and Raven had left, too. Eljay lingered around the borders, shuffling around with a fearful eye on the outside world, while his chest was tight at the thought of having to leave Redhawk Caldera to get out there, soon.