Ankyra Sound the long way round

From the way that Wildfire spoke, Eljay knew that it was serious and that he needed to really try, and hard. But he still felt like a fraud and he was afraid that he would be making false promises. He supposed he could promise and if they didn't think he pulled his weight enough, then what would it matter? They'd kick him out and he'd be back where he was now, sort of... But still, he'd feel bad lying to them and he was afraid that they would ask things he couldn't provide.

"I... I can try," he mumbled, sounding flustered. His breathing was a bit faster and he looked away, subconsciously licking his lips nervously and submissively while he tried to gather his cool. "I don't... How do I know when I'm, uhm, pulling enough weight..?" Eljay could promise and he could try, but he'd feel forever nervous that he wasn't actually pulling the weight they required. What if it wasn't enough and his promises were doomed to fail?