Redhawk Caldera [aw] another dawn

The days grew slower and slower.

Over the last year, it was more and more unavoidable that Eljay was growing old. His limbs were stiffer, which he compensated by slowing down his step, so that his children and his mate did not notice. But he knew that they knew.

Each time he had to sit up, he lay down instead, to spare his sore limbs. Each time he had to get up after he had lay down, his limbs trembled, and he was yet slower for at least five minutes as he got into motion.

It seemed unfair to Eljay, that somebody like him should live as long as he already had, while wolves like Bronco passed away from fever in the night, no matter how much the Caretaker had tried to ease his pain and his fevers. How many bodies had he seen, back to the earth, back to nature, their souls gone forever?

Had Eljay been able, he would have given wolves like that some of his years — his good years — so that they may all live equally long. But he knew that life wasn't like that. Life was unfair, no matter how hard he had tried his whole life to make it fair. All he could do was to keep trying the latter.

Despite his aching limbs, these were not the bad years. These were the good years — the years spent with his loving mate @Maia, with his beautiful family, with @Teya, whose grief no amount of friendship could not quench.

The old boy walked by the lake in the misty morning, glancing out over it, while he wondered what this year would have in store for him and his family. He had spent so many of his years in Redhawk Caldera, and he knew that it would be his final home.

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Maia had woken up early to do some hunting and so far had caught nothing but frustration. She wanted to bring something to Chickadee and her family, but after a third rabbit made it to ground (and she’d managed to trip over herself) she decided that a break was in order.

To her delight, Eljay was already at the lake. It never failed to brighten her mood, seeing him, and today was no exception.

You would not believe the morning I’ve had. Mind if I hide out here a while? She asked with a smile, joining him with a light kiss on the cheek.

She could tell he was thinking about something and hoped she hadn’t interrupted, but the lake really was gorgeous today. Spring was finally settling in to stay.

A single ear pricked backwards to acknowledge Maia's approach. His hearing wasn't quite what it'd been, but it was still sharp enough. He could hear from her gait that it was Maia. His nose confirmed that it was her before he saw her face. His head followed his ear, a smile creeping on his face as Maia's sweet, gentle face came into view.

He chuckled as Maia mentioned having had a day; he had only slept in and then stretched in order to make this walk to the lake. Oh? he asked as he nuzzled her cheek, always eager to hear about Maia's day. Realising he hadn't answered her question, he added: On the day I start minding your company, please take me out. He chuckled, though realised after he said it that perhaps at his age, it was no longer something to joke about altogether too much.

The joke was definitely a dark one, and touched on worries Maia carried with her every day. Still she laughed, unwilling to let those thoughts ruin a beautiful afternoon, even if they did linger a bit. Somehow I don’t think that will ever happen. She replied, leaning into his side for a moment before glancing out over the lake.

Grandpa and grandma. I didn’t think we’d ever get to hear that. I hope… I just hope everyone else is this happy, wherever they are right now. Maybe they had already been grandparents, somewhere out there in the world, and didn’t know. Maybe they’d never find out.

Sorry. I just miss them. She knew that she didn’t need to apologize to Eljay, of all people, for that. I’m so grateful to have what we have though.

Grandpa. He loved the word, and everything about it. Eljay had been overjoyed to be a big brother so many times. He had loved watching his siblings and other pups in the pack. Becoming a father for the first time — though it was a joy that was quickly overshadowed by the death of Wildfire — had been a dream come true. And now, being a grandfather...? He wasn't sure that he would've expected to ever get here. Maia seemed to think the same.

The easy smile slipped off his face momentarily when Maia said that he hoped everyone else was happy, wherever they were. He thought fleetingly of Elfie — a thought he was quick to push out of his mind — and then of Weejay. His sweet little girl and her flower garden... He hoped that wherever she was, she was doing well, however sad he was that he didn't get to share his life with her today.

I hope so, too, he said solemnly, with a light sigh.

He shook his head when she apologised. You have nothing to apologise for, he spoke softly. I'm grateful for what we have, too. I feel so lucky that we get to see our grandchildren grow up. Eljay frowned as he finished the sentence, staring out over the lake and leaning gently into Maia's side. He hoped, at least, that he would get to see them grow into themselves all the way. It seemed every day got tougher, though at least his mind was still sharp, and he knew he'd been lucky to live a more privileged life than many others, with enough food to fill his belly for the last many years.

That made him think briefly of the famine where he had almost passed away to spare food for the rest of the pack. He felt privileged again, that they were not undergoing such a famine right now.