She was running, running through the trees blindly as the echoing whispers of voices nipped at her heels "Changed, dirty, ruined" she screamed and woke up.Apparently she had been sleep walking for as she screamed she woke up and the sudden conciousness caused her to stumble face first into a patch of thorns. She yelped and quickly got up all at once remembering the voices. She shivered and glanced at the sky, the stars hidden from view and suddenly she felt watched. Her mind screamed for her to run to safety and she did, bolting with panicked breaths until smelled Priest and booked it for his den. She didnt know if he was awake or asleep when she fell to his den floor and pressed into him pressing a feverish muzzle against his throat "The stars have hidden from me. They send me visions of my sins hunting me down. I am not purity they say, I am ruined, dirty, changed" she whispered in a pleading breath before she rolled herself onto her back and gazed imploringly into his eyes "Fix me Priest and I will be at your service until you release me" she begged him and turned her face to the ground attempting to hide her shame and desperation.
The command had her swiftly rolling to her paws, not because she was obedient but because the whisperings of the taunting teasing sins she had commited echoed around her. She glanced about in a half stupor cringing occasionally or stumbling with a faint whimper to press to his side "Nu buti ilsia sori ir fenories" she murmured only half lucid as they walked through the cave systems her eyes adjusting rather well and causing her to peer around. The closer they grew to the sacred place the calmer she seemed to become but there was still a madness in her eyes seemingly enhanced by the knowledge the lucidity brought. As he motioned to her she looked to him and nodded silently walking to the altar and leaped up nimbly, looking to him and then glancing at the stars and silently begging them to clean her out and make her new again.
She watched him only half lucid, wondering if she was ill or if it was a trick of light that made it seem like for a moment his fur gleamed with the stars. As he fell into a trance a hush came over her mind, utter silence and not a single thought of her own nor the frightening voices mocking her. She breathed a sweet sigh of relief and closed her eyes, reaching out with her mind to the stars and begging them one last time to give her another chance. As she did she felt a touch at her nose, moving down her neck and spine each second causing the most lovely warmth to fill her heart and then, all at once it changed and she experienced what she could only describe as the comfort of being body to body, the warmth of a mother's embrace, the exhileration of being with someone who knows you on a deep level and then it vanished as Priest announced her new affinity leaving her feeling hollow.
She blinked slowly and nodded, not replying outloud but instead letting it sink in. Intimacy.......she had never been allowed to get intimate with another as purity, not fully. Intimacy.....did that mean what she thought it did? She slowly stood and trailed silently out of the cave, pausing to glance over her shoulder at where she had lain as if the invisible wolf who had touched her moments before would be standing there. Was she supposed to get close to everyone, to try and bring them the same fulfilling feeling the spirit wolf had given her? She turned and walked from the cave, slowly wandering toward her den where she collapsed and fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.