She had to get out of there. the Creek was quiet and dead and no one seemed to share her mindset. She was done being a Delta - done being a Gamma! She was supposed to lead, supposed to care for others and share her wisdom, but no one would give her the light of day. If Kavik would just realize himself that he was no where near a good leader, that he would never top her or her father or her friends, she would probably not feel so shitty for even thinking all of these thoughts. Chusi was an honest and emotional creature, no way she could mask her disdain for her peers and keep to herself, that's why she was on the move again.

She had left @Eilonwy in charge of her babies, knowing her own daughter would take good care of her siblings, and went on her way in the early morning. The sun had barely awoken when she came upon the smell of pack, one she faintly recognized but she wasn't sure from where. Perhaps it was just her imagination. She approached the border and called for an audience, unsure if anyone would recognize her voice or what kind of wolf would come greet her.

She had no idea Ingram had become a father. Then again, he probably didn't know she was a mother either. As she waited at the border, her eyes started wandering, still in awe of the wall made of rock and snowy tops that kept her from seeing the Hinterlands. She was sure that, if she climbed high enough, she would be able to see the Sea. She remembered the coast so vividly, how brightly the stars would shine on clear nights. How the sand got between her toes and teeth, making that crispy sound you only got from sand. Most importantly, she remembered her family and friends, all of which were now lost. She wasn't sure if they had left because she was a bad friend or because they simply wanted to go, either way it kind of broke her heart. No children could ever fill the hole left behind by Arturo, Lotte, her siblings... Ingram.

While she was feeling so detached and angry with the world, she didn't expect a fragment of her past coming to greet her. Her heart shattered further at the word "Friend" and she felt like she was choking. Hey... She returned softly, brows risen in surprise but quickly furrowing again. I didn't know ya lived nearby. So why didn't you visit, idiot? I'm having the worst time of my life while you can barely remember yours.

Not much. She lied, frowning in the process. She was a bad liar, but seeing that he had lied by not telling her where he was it was only fair. The good mood she had gotten from traveling again sunk through her toes into the ground. Maybe it would've been better not to come, this only hurt her even more. What about ya?

Yeah, that also hurt. At least he wasn't gushing about the female who gave him his daughter. She smiled - seeing Ingram so happy did brighten her mood, even though he wasn't happy because of her. What an honor. She responded. She'd always loved kids and, in her opinion, she was rather good with them. 'Got two lil' girls mahself. Of course, Eilonwy didn't count as a little girl anymore. She was an adult, the only family Chusi had left. Maybe they could play together, someday.