Otter Creek I'll [m]ake your timber shiver

To him, it mattered. It mattered more than Alexander would ever know. Yet, he did not speak, silent, waiting to hear what the other had to say before replying with his own verdict. And in an instant, he felt more conflicted than he had ever before. Adonis had no wish to be kept hidden, yet Xan's apparent will for him to stay begun to overcome his previous mindset. Would he be enough? Adonis wanted to say yes, yes he was, but he could not. He was a creature of habit, never had he settled for another before, constantly roaming to where he could not be found time and time again. It had become exhausting, yet it was the only way he knew. To admit that Alexander was enough for him to be content was a mere sliver of the truth, it was not even that, it was a lie. He could not lie.

yet, as he cracked open his mouth to speak, the words barely balancing on his tongue, he could not bring himself to say it. Denying another had not been so difficult before, not so much that it made his mouth dry and his mind jumbled. "i.. alexander, i am not meant to live in one place, i have not since..," it had been so long, so long and not once had he changed his ways that he could not even remember. "i do not know how to sit still," he admitted, though his eyes cast away, unwilling to meet the gaze of the other. "what you ask of me is.."

the sentance trailed off, he could not bring himself do do it. he would not. had the roles been reversed, he could not imagine the desolation though he had once been in the same skin the other boy now walked. a soft shake of his head was signal enough, he would follow the other, against the wishes of instinct yet for the soul; he could not simply abandon the other after such a proposal, one that he knew had broken some of the many walls that guarded xan's very being. "okay," it was soft, timid though his pride rang true. it was something about the reward, becoming unhidden that appealed to him more than turning his back on the other. adonis did not know what they were, nor did he care much to think about it for more than five seconds, yet, the idea that he might bring xan the tiniest amount of assurance began to draw him in, until he had no choice but to follow.

"though i really hope you don't have nosy neighbors, for their sake," a grin reappeared and he did not make any effort to hide it's ulterior meaning, for he was completely serious. he accepted, and adonis would deal with his choice and in his own time, glib being his natural form of ignoring the countless problems with his life.