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Fin felt the pressure against her side and only then did she seem to really notice Eljay beside her. He looked as depressed as she felt, and quite suddenly she felt even more terrible than before. She forgot in her misery how hard this was for the others in her life. She wondered then about Elwood and how he is faring, but not in the way she usually did. Usually she wondered only if he'd had any success yet, if he was getting any closer to finding their daughter. She didn't think often of how worried and miserable he must be out there on his own.

But just like that, the thought was gone and replaced with the anger and resentment. It should have been her that had gone. Elwood was not as suited as she was to do this sort of thing. Fin would have found her by now. She never should have allowed her guilt over what had happened the past to prevent her from being the one to go after Lucy. And Elwood should have known to allow her that opportunity instead of claiming it for his own when he didn't have the skill.

Any inclination she'd had to offer comfort to her eldest son was gone as she settled her head upon the grass and shut her eyes, weary from the endless battering of her emotions.