Blackbeak Bluff You can run from the pain, or you can allow it to burn into your heart

He leaned into his sister, grateful to have her near. After Shivali had left, he knew that he had leaned heavily on Tahani. As his only lingering littermate, he could trust her above anyone else. He was glad that she had remained so steady in such a turbulent time for them. They were family, but they were different now, it was just them. For now it was just the three of them, instead of a whole pack. And there was no going back. Tahani could have stayed, she could have condemed himself and Tomkin. Just as their other siblings had done. But she hadn't and for that he would always be more grateful than he could express. His own reserved nature prevented him from showing his deep emotions even to Tahani. 

Clearing his throat he suddenly felt awkward in his confession. But he did his best to shove the thought aside, seeing as it was his sister. "And if we don't find her?" Siarut's realist personality poking through. Tomkin would have rolled his eyes, and claimed Sia was giving up, and that he just didn't want to find Shivali. When in all honesty he wanted to find his dear littermate more than anyone would ever know. But he was trying to be leader the three needed. Thinking with his head, not his heart. 

What would they do if they didn't find her? It was a question that had plagued his mind since they left. There was a high probability that they wouldn't find her. She had been gone for weeks, and they had no idea how long it would take to find her. When would they call a quits? When would they come to the conclusion that she couldn't be found? He need his sister as a sounding board more than ever. Especially with Tomkin not around to hear.