Kildeer Rest fix me or just conflict me, 'cause i'll take anything

@Lanegan hope this works? <3 other tags for ref

There are too many changes at the Sanctuary lately; it's overwhelming. Suffocating. He can't look at anyone he loves without feeling guilty anymore— except, oddly enough, @Lily, who he finds himself seeking when he can muster the energy (and excuse, to himself, not spending it on @Delight or Zamael). Eris is around too, and this is his bubble, but even within it he feels isolated, confining himself to his den most days.
He feels too heavy today, gross and stagnant and festering— so he isolates himself with distance this time. He doesn't wander far past the borders, but it's far enough; he has no destination, no intentions. Eventually he'll return— for now, his feet take him south of the Sanctuary, searching for something he can't put a name to and knows he will not find.