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*Shadow* · February 08, 2015, 05:28 AM

@Crëyr right after burke encounter?

Shadow was agitated, angry and worried at the same time, why had Paarthurnax not contacted him yet. The pups were old enough to wander out of their dens now and he was sure they could meet their father now, so what in the name of Jupiter was keeping her away from telling him to come and visit. Did she have a change of mind? Thought he was better when he was away from his children? Or that Scimitar would prove to be a better father? Fucking hell. He couldn't trust anyone outside his pack anymore.

Keeping his face a stoic mask, the Roman made his way out of his cave den and towards the plains which dominated his territory. There, he would find the lake and he would be alone with his thoughts. Or not. The memories of Paarthurnax and himself flashed through his head, bodies colliding, fur mingling. He shook it quickly away, unwilling to dwell in the past.

He was nearing the lake and half of him hoped there was no one there, but the other half of him hoped for someone he could actually trust.

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: February 08, 2015, 07:07 AM by Crëyr.)

the memories of her encounter with the male were still fresh on her mind, though she chose not to let them eat her insides away. crëyr had already submerged herself in the freezing river water some time ago, hoping to get rid of the smell of him on her pelt, though she was sure that some, if not very little, lingered. ugh. this would have to do for now.

in the midst of all the unfamiliar scents, her nose twitched and caught one familiar one. the last time she'd been alone with him, he'd had a writhing nightmare. soon enough shadow's large grey figure came into sight once she finished following the scent, and she gradually began to slow, not knowing if he wished for any company. but the sterling girl was always happy to see him.

she fell beside him, her head dipped with respect, a delicate smile on her face. "shadow."

*Shadow* · February 08, 2015, 05:42 AM

It wasn't long before a familiar scent caught his attention and sure enough, Crëyr arrived with a gentle smile on her face and like usual, she uttered a greeting. His name was a greeting after all. Shadow smiled at her, gray eyes bright as he leaned close to touch her cheek, he was always glad to see her. In fact, every day, it became clearer to him, how selfish Paarthurnax really was and how Crëyr was so much better and he wondered inwardly how he could be so stupid.

He breathed in her familiar smell but something else caught his attention and he drew away abruptly, a frown adorning his features, the stoic mask slipping out of place as he stopped and faced her. Whats that smell? he demanded, rather impolitely, but concern glittered in his silver gaze. That disgusting smell, who is that?

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: February 08, 2015, 07:08 AM by Crëyr.)

shadow stopped, turned and faced her, leaning in to her to touch her cheek as a greeting. his indifferent expression was now replaced with a smile, and she was glad.

he continued to start on about the smell, goddammit the smell. so much for hoping for it not to be noticed. well, of course somebody would eventually find out. a frown fell upon shadow's face, then, the smile twisting into an expression of disgust.

crëyr swallowed slightly as they neared the lake. she stopped before the water. "i— i don't know. two days ago there was this guy, he, well..." she paused, not knowing what to say and really, if she was to continue. "i tried to get him to back off, but the bitch wouldn't budge. he thought i was one of those hit-and-go toys."

she paused, cringing inwardly, wondering if she had said too much. she didn't want to think about it, and had done a fair job getting the encounter off her mind the day before.

*Shadow* · February 08, 2015, 09:50 AM

The frown deepened as Crëyr spoke, saying two days ago there was a guy and she told him to back off but he wouldn't budge and that he thought she was one of those hit-and-go toys. Shadow scowled, and unconsciously flattened his ears and pulled back his lips in a snarl. Brilliant alabaster fangs flashed in the mild sunlight at the thought of some weird pathetic perverted male with his Crëyr. His.

Once the possessive thought registered in his head, Shadow inwardly took a step back. Did he just say Crëyr was his???? A flurry of emotions made to overtake him but the Roman stood his ground mentally and pushed them away for now, instead, with concern written over his whole feature, made to touch the silver Beta's cheek gently before pulling her into a hug. Or as much of a hug as wolves could do.

I'll go and slaughter that bastard, no one does that to my girl. Holy shit.

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: February 09, 2015, 09:22 AM by Crëyr.)

shadow's frown deepened until it started to become aggressive. his grey ears flattened against his skull, his fangs baring— well. she had no idea he would be this angry by that, but again, it somehow had her flooded with warmth— this meant he cared, right?

he then proceeded to wrap her into a tight hug before her surprise ensued— she pressed her head against his shoulder then, closing her eyes, nudging her nose into the warmth of his silver fur. seeking comfort in his embrace, her breath caught in her throat as he said the next words. "i'll go and slaughter that bastard, no one does that to my girl."

his girl? she was his?

crëyr seemed to have forgotten how to speak, and her cerulean eyes were open. they were distant, her gaze fixated some point over his shoulder, far over the lake and into the woods and over the mountains.

"i'm your girl? me?" she finally managed, very much flustered. following that she buried her face back in his shoulder, though she was still stunned. somehow she wanted to hide. her voice a whisper, she spoke, "no, don't do that because of me. you don't have to do that. i'm trying to ignore it and get rid of it, for now."

then came another wave of thoughts on the my girl bit of what he'd said. she supposed it was reasonable, after paar's departure. but was he so quick to move on? did he really want this? what even was there about her that had captured his attention, anyway?

well, she did. she had even admitted to scarlett, she did really, really like him. there was something about him that had her entranced, fully captivated.

*Shadow* · February 10, 2015, 09:24 AM

Holy shit. Holy shit. Holy shit. The thoughts echoed around his head the moment he spoke the words out loud. How on earth was he going to explain it now, huh? You stupid, stupid, stupid, fucking idiot, Shadow. What have you gotten yourself into again, huh? screamed his subconscious. He felt her head against his shoulder, the warmth of her body and knew the answer to her question but it felt wrong. Wrong to be in..in the same position as last time so fast after a break up.

Shadow adopted his smirk, because that was what he had to do when he was nervous and had no idea how to proceed. Basically become a sarcastic, witty bastard and play it off. However, he did not know if it would work this time, and it didn't. I...I like you Crëyr, like I really like you. he began awkwardly, pulling away from her and gazing anxiously at her face, wondering what would be her reaction. I'm just saying since...you know..owe you an explanation?"

Yay! Awkwardness!

"No, don't do that because of me. you don't have to do that. i'm trying to ignore it and get rid of it, for now." Shadow scowled, Alright, but if he tries to do anything to you again, I'm going to rip his hide away from him and tear him to bits and slaughter him and make him remember that nobody messes with...you. he ended softly.

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: February 12, 2015, 10:20 PM by Crëyr.)

she could practically feel him smirk without even looking at him, though it didn't affect her much as it had did the last time. smirking in what she considered serious matters, seemed to be his way of masking his flustered state, and was used whenever he had absolutely no idea what to do.

crëyr couldn't hear it in his voice, though, when he told her that he really really liked her. the tone he had used was awkward, fiddly, though she was pretty sure it was the truth. he was rather predictable, anyway.

he pulled away, silver eyes seemingly vulnerable, gazing anxiously down at her face. quickly he said something about how he was just saying because he owed her an explanation, and so crëyr nodded vigorously in response, as her lungs and heart were beginning to bloom with flowers.

stop growing in my lungs i can't f-ing breathe

she smiled up at him, feeling fearless and infinite for just this one moment. "i really, really like you too. i wasn't really sure until now, but well, we've both let it slip. i thought you should know."

when he ended with how he would pound the guy's face to push the next time he laid a paw on her, she couldn't help but lightly laugh a little, as she had noticed how he had ended with "you" instead of "my girl".

*Shadow* · March 05, 2015, 12:50 AM

Her smile was beautiful and at that moment, it was the light of the universe, it was his light, his way out of his life of darkness. Sorry Daddy Pluto. And her words mended the cracked part of his heart, the part that feared and feared and feared. And he knew he had gone too fast with Paarthurnax, fell in love to fast and they took it too fast. She was right, they were not meant to be and he was now happy for her decision to leave. Because if she had not left, he would not have noticed his best friend at his side at all times. And though one part of him loved her always, the other part was ready to love again.

Shadow allowed a smirk on his lips, accompanied by a gleam in his gaze. He flung himself at her and attempted to embrace her in a wolfish hug, whispering softly at her I guess I can say I love you instead of I really really like you now. He was unsure, unsteady but that was how it started. They had known each other for months and months, he knew her better than he knew Paarthurnax. But he would give her time.

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: March 07, 2015, 10:19 AM by Crëyr.)

LET THE CRËYDOW SHIP SAIL

crëyr paused to only let shadow absorb her words before he again flung himself at her, enveloping her in a large hug. following that was a whisper in her ear, replacing his previous "i really like you" with an i love you, the three words she had last heard coming from draenen's mouth. before that was her mother's. and gwilym's. and her dad's.

before she knew it, she had blurted the same three words out at him. "i love you, too," the sterling girl spoke breathlessly, merely a whisper. she didn't exactly know how her like for him had developed into love, but she could name a few things. his rawness, the brief glimpses of his genuinity, the way he seemed to make everything so enhanced and so real when he was around. his strengths. his fierce, passionate protectiveness and even the glint in his eye.

the welsh outrider reached up to deliver a tentative kiss on his cheek before withdrawing her head so that it was back on the ground, her cerulean eyes on shadow's features and behind him, the gleaming sun. "to love isn't to destroy now, is it?"

if he was ready, then she was. she was always ready. any worrying thoughts she had about the male were gone, washed away, for she knew her shadow was there.

*Shadow* · March 10, 2015, 06:06 AM

Fade out?

A smirk touched his lips when she spoke, saying that she loved him too and then leaned forward to kiss his cheek. A mischievous gleam danced in his silver eyes as he gazed down at her form. "Guess in the end you could not resist my smoking hot body," Shadow grinned at his beta before collapsing on the ground next to her, gazing at the sky and spotting an eagle fly across the sky. He took it as a sign from Jupiter, that his patron approved. And he remembered that no sign came up with Paarthurnax.

"It depends, sweetheart." The Roman drawled out in a playful manner. ~~Think Haymitch.~~ Shadow nuzzled her cheek affectionately and feeling for once, that maybe the fates would be nice. Paar was a test and he passed, his silver queen was the reward.

*Crëyr* · (This post was last modified: March 10, 2015, 06:49 AM by Crëyr.)

his next words were responded with a snort as crëyr herself tumbled down to look up at the sky when shadow did. "yeah, maybe."

she welcomed his affectionate nuzzle, closed her eyes and smiled, taking in the sensation of the gentle breeze and her new lover at her side.