i am not your autumn moon

Looking down in shame, Hawkeye pushed her ears to her head. "I am sorry. If it weren't for me, none of you would have fought. And especially if it weren't for me, Crete wouldn't hate me." The Alphess slowly lowered herself to the ground, orbs still focused on the floor all the while.

She then wondered if her feelings for Peregrine were true. Every time she was around Atticus, fondness for him flared up, no matter how hard she tried to keep it dormant. Did this mean that she truly did not love Peregrine? Shouldn't one not have feelings for another when they loved someone? Hawkeye was confused and saddened by all of this, realizing that there could be pain in the heart from other things besides heartbreak.