Redhawk Caldera i'd give my life

Pantaleimon was glad that Peregrine did not entirely block him out, like he did some others in his life. If he wanted to get through this, he would need to adapt, but he also would need to keep the pack's respect, and not let them see the bad, grouchy side of him. "Me too," Pantaleimon muttered softly when Peregrine admitted he needed a distraction; Pan was terrified thinking about all of this and what might happen in the future, if this happened now, and he wanted nothing more than to not-think of it.

There was a moment of silence while Pantaleimon tried to think of a subject they could talk about. In that moment Pantaleimon mostly found out that above all of the stress and worries, he was really happy that Peregrine was still alive, and that they were together in this moment. A warm feeling bubbled up in Pan's stomach as he put things in perspective and realised all the more how much he loved Perry and savoured this moment.

"Maybe you could..." Pantaleimon trailed off, feeling unsure, and shifted his weight a little. "Uhm, could tell me about the things you want to do to, uhm, with me, when you're better... y'know." Pan shot Perry a hasty and bashful smile that betrayed the sort of subjects he had in mind; Pan still felt very unsure about sexuality because it was, well, difficult considering how he felt, but maybe it'd make Peregrine think of more positive thoughts.