August 31, 2015, 11:27 AM
Taking a deep breath, she confessed. "I think i'm going crazy".
She honestly did, not to extent of hearing voices and seeing things on a regular basis but it was still something.
"Things happened in my past, horrible, abusive events. And it was carried out by my last Alpha and his pack. It wasn't just physical torture but mental too." She took a breath, getting caught up. The subject was painful to talk about, and even now she wasn't telling the true extent of their words and actions against her.
"Sometimes, every few weeks, I get really angry, it's rage. I can't sleep, I heard their voices taunting me and I think, why not take your anger out on something else. And I do. I wake up with blood on my hands and now I believe it's the only way to stop it. " She said, almost expressionless. She didn't want to show she was weak, because she wasn't.
"I just want to know what's happening to me. At first, I could control the anger but now, what's stopping me from hurting someone else?" She asked, in anguish. A part of her would always hold on to the rage and misery she felt, as fuel for her temper. But she couldn't have it getting out of hand. She didn't trust herself. At least, not right now.
She honestly did, not to extent of hearing voices and seeing things on a regular basis but it was still something.
"Things happened in my past, horrible, abusive events. And it was carried out by my last Alpha and his pack. It wasn't just physical torture but mental too." She took a breath, getting caught up. The subject was painful to talk about, and even now she wasn't telling the true extent of their words and actions against her.
"Sometimes, every few weeks, I get really angry, it's rage. I can't sleep, I heard their voices taunting me and I think, why not take your anger out on something else. And I do. I wake up with blood on my hands and now I believe it's the only way to stop it. " She said, almost expressionless. She didn't want to show she was weak, because she wasn't.
"I just want to know what's happening to me. At first, I could control the anger but now, what's stopping me from hurting someone else?" She asked, in anguish. A part of her would always hold on to the rage and misery she felt, as fuel for her temper. But she couldn't have it getting out of hand. She didn't trust herself. At least, not right now.
the only way to keep your people loyal is
to make certain they fear you more than they do the enemy
to make certain they fear you more than they do the enemy
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Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - August 28, 2015, 10:36 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - August 30, 2015, 04:26 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - August 30, 2015, 05:09 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - August 30, 2015, 09:09 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - August 31, 2015, 11:27 AM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - September 14, 2015, 10:14 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - September 16, 2015, 05:24 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - September 20, 2015, 05:21 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - September 21, 2015, 05:03 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - September 27, 2015, 09:33 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - September 28, 2015, 02:13 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - October 02, 2015, 07:04 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Nemesis - October 07, 2015, 04:01 PM
RE: Advice for the young at heart - by Meldresi - October 11, 2015, 09:26 PM