Fairspell Meadow Impossible Oblivion

Akela looked right in front of him.  "I had a mate once. " he started and paused.  "Catori. " he added, unable to use the verb to be in its past tense.  A name remained, no matter what. "We were the beta couple in my uncle's pack. Things were looking great. He gave us his blessing and shortly after, she was expecting our first litter. " he spoke  "We parted in the morning, I went to hunt with my uncle... when I came back, she was gone ... I thought nothing of it. She was maybe out for a walk or to stretch or have some intimacy. " The wolf looked down, his throat tight with the pain and anger he was feeling just as freshly as the day it all happened.

"I went to look for her, when she did not come back by the next morning...I eventually found her ...lying on the bank of a river. There was nothing to do ...something had attacked her ...the wounds were too deep...and she was fading..."   Akela stopped and closed his eyes. "I stayed with her .. until she asked me to put an end to her suffering...and try to save our pups...I could never say no to her. " He opened his eyes again.  "So I did it ... I killed her...then I..." his voice died.  " They were too young to survive ...must have died hours ago..." he jumped, implying that he had done what was needed to get access to the pups.  " Everyone understood, but ...packlaws are packlaw and  I had killed one of our own ...to be honest I couldn't remain there...everything smelled, reminded me of her...and I can't live with it. "

" In my grief, I clang to the brotherhood, as a way of finding a way to communicate with her. Tell her, how sorry  I am for failing her and my duty...rumors had it that  the brotherhood could talk to the spirits through the priests."