I'm lost without you

Misty's eyes widened as she heard a voice from behind her. Mordecai.....The Alpha. "Uh...yeah.....I've been doing border patrols a lot. Just doing my part to keep the pack safe." she said shyly, chuckling nervously. She didn't need this right now. Keep it short and quick. a voice in her head kept saying. Short and quick. Misty shuffled dirt around with her paw before looking at the Alpha. "How have you been?" she asked nervously. Misty's mind was distant and unfocused, something she hoped she didn't reveal in her eyes, voice, or body language. She needed everyone to think she was okay. She didn't want the pity that came with "not being okay", she didn't want the help, and she certainly didn't want pack mates constantly following her and checking up on her. She just wanted to be a normal wolf in the pack in everyone's eyes. Looking for Nemesis was not something she wanted Luke, the Alphas, or anyone else involved in. It might make her look like she was still loyal to Blackfeather, a spy for them. No. She was done with Blackfeather. She just didn't want to be done with her best friend.