Wild Berry Meadow sloe-eyed demon

Without thinking, Pan's immediate response was: "Yes!" However, sadness fell over his face again as he thought of the things that Peregrine had said. "But... If he doesn't... I mean — I guess I just want hi—them for myself." And he'd never want that, because he loves Fox first, and me second. Pan had never before considered that he was secondly loved. He'd always thought of it more as an equal thing, where Perry simply loved Fox and Pan both. There was no need for a ranking order among them. Now it became painstakingly clear there was such an order.

"It's complicated, I guess..." Pan let out a soft sigh as he realised it wasn't even that complicated. It was just a matter of whether he could live being second to everything in Perry's life or not. This made him come to another realisation. "I just don't know if I... I mean, it's better to-to be close to someone you love than to be alone." And maybe that was what it all came down to in the end for Pan: He was afraid of being alone, afraid he would never find someone like Perry again.