Moonspear Ah, decisions

Charon was first to arrive, and Dash's tail wagged as his leader bumped his shoulder in greeting. He felt a little bad that he hadn't made the effort to seek Charon out more. Maybe if he had, he'd feel less like he didn't have any friends other than Thistle Cloud. It was really his own doing, and now he realized that. Uh, sort of a one on one. I wanted to talk to you and Amekaze together, if that's alright, he said.

As if speaking her name had conjured her up, Amekaze came up behind Charon. Dash nodded in greeting. Thanks for coming, he said, feeling a little awkward now that all attention was on him. Might as well get to it. Taking a deep breath, he began, So, I know I haven't really been socializing like I should, or going after my trades like I should or really... doing anything that I should the past couple of days.... he trailed off a bit, his gaze darting this way and that, refusing to meet their own. But, I was wondering if I could have sort of... a do-over? he asked.

Like the words had been bottled up his entire life, they came spilling out of his mouth all at once.  Floki's promotion has really got me thinking and I was so confused as to why I was upset over it, but I realized I was just confused as to why I was looked over, but then I realized it's because I don't fit the role. At all. he confessed. I do really appreciate being Gamma and having the opportunity to help out, but I'm not a dominant wolf and being dominant over wolves I don't feel dominant over gives me anxiety and the only way I know to settle that is by being alone, but being alone while being in a pack isn't really possible, but I don't want to leave. I really just want... I want to be demoted to a spot where I don't have to lead any one and I can focus more on being myself and getting to know the others. If he had been human, his face probably would have turned blue from lack of oxygen at this point. He took a deep breath as he finally stopped talking, looking completely awkward and worried that his leaders would take this the wrong way.