The Sentinels Please believe me don't you see the things you mean to me

she half-assed a laugh and muttered a reply -- Cas gave her a small, tight smile that did not reach his eyes. in many ways, he wish they hadn't shared that moment -- but then he was glad that they did. "i'm in love with both of you," he murmured, pulling his gaze away. the words were so honest, so un-Cas-like that for a moment he himself was stunned into silence. 

had he ruined their entire lives, including that of Behati? he couldn't say for sure, but it damn well felt like it. the romantic in the boy wanted to reach out to Aria and hold her as he had before, but he steeled himself against the feeling, the effort setting a muscle to to jumping in his jaw.

his words lay between them like a coiled rattlesnake.