Blackfeather Woods heavy dirty soul

for @Xan BECAUSE I TOTALLY THOUGHT I REPLIED TO THE OTHER THREAD AHHHHHGGG sorry!!!

Guilt, it was a terrible thing. Even she could not escape it's threshold no matter how hard she tried to push it to the back of her mind. She had not spoken to Xan after her and Kove's mateship, and even though their relations did not concern Xan, she could not help but to feel she had left him in the dark. Did he even know? Sure, maybe she was blowing things out of proportion, but technically, she was Xan's... step mother. The idea sent a shiver down her spine, not like she detested the idea but the realism was frightening. How did one even react to that, thrust into an impossible situation? Nevertheless, it was unlikely she could avoid him for the rest of forever so there was no point in delaying the inevitable. 

But that didn't mean she had to do it right then. If he came along her path, she would stop him but procrastination was her default setting and there was no changing that. She had even delayed talking to Kove, too. It was horrible, but she knew how things worked. The next thing they knew, she'd be popping kids and playing housewife for the rest of her miserable life while being pooped on and harassed by children. The idea seemed unlikely to her, but it did not stop her from thinking it. Regardless, she had a mate and he had a kid and there was no avoiding that, ever.