Wapun Meadow I lost both the kids in the divorce.

sorry about the delay!

it seemed the ghost of her choices would not leave her to rest, her gaze sunken in as she laid unmoving, listening only to the taunts echoed by her own thoughts. though she lay, she felt exhausted. it was tiresome work, becoming unloving. never had she thought it so easy to hate, it was not as morally depleting as she had thought, yet she found it a burden on her mind. 

yet, when another neared her collapsed form, a male specifically, she shrunk away from it's looming presence. males were destructive, created only to rule and kill and bed; no more no less. at least, all her experiences with the species had come to the conclusion. yet, from the way the other carried himself, it did not take much for her realise the other carried similar problems as she did. yet she was sure nothing could be worse than the state she had been left in.

"has life failed you too?" she asked, though her gaze did not hover on the other, returning to rest on the beyond where she could not see his pitied gaze upon her. instead, she lay motionless, only the intake and exhale movements of her chest signalled she still lived. she spent many days, moments on end simply laying on the ground; shadows where she could not be seen. she did not want to be seen.