Moonspear What Have I Done?

She asked what was wrong. He felt ashamed, pitiful. Insults aimed at himself circled around like an island in a hurricane, and he were the island. He let it all pour out in words, in emotion. "I couldn't stop myself! I couldn't..couldn't..." He choked on his words, being mocked by his own double-sided mind. 

"I helped her! And then I...I raped her!" Just hearing himself say it. It was like having an earthquake split him in half mentally. He did not think to look away, not this time. Lost in his own tears. Although he did not look up either. Whatever her reaction was, he most likely deserved. He had taken advantage of someone who he had helped. Judas could not, would not let it happen again. But that's what scared him. He had no control over it.