Stone Circle Beginning of hope

cyron watches from the corner of his eye as his mother shoves the remains of her meal to the sigh and his ears flutter back as she releases a long sigh. it is a heavy thing, burdened. he understands, in his own way. from his own burdens. he wishes he could be what she wants him to be, that he could undo everything that'd been done to him. cyron wishes that he could go back to being the boy he'd been when he'd been taken captive as opposed to the man that had escaped from blackfeather's clutches. a broken and undiscovered man; a stranger even to himself. it was terrifying and cyron deigned not to spend too much time thinking about it. he would figure out what kind of man he was as he went. thus far, it appeared to be an ok strategy.

he looks to her and then away as she attempts to assure him that he is not the cause of her pain. he doesn't believe her ...at least not fully. he shifts his weight, dull chestnut gaze staring out at the territories stretched before the duo though his mother has his rapt and undivided attention as she speaks, as she explains. cyron swallows thickly, unsure about how he should feel to hear that his parents had gone to blackfeather woods and had given up on him just because his return was refused. it felt like a slap in the face. the kind that smarted and stung for a long stretch of moments after. in part, he kind of feels betrayed. unworthy. his mother speaks to him candidly and while he knows he should appreciate her honesty he almost wishes she would not have been so candid with him now, in hindsight.

"why did you give up on me? why did you leave me there with them?" he asks after a moment. his tone is not accusing but cyron can't entirely hide the pain that colors the words. did it really matter? it happened and there is no way to turn back the clock and do it all over again. besides, he is out. he got out for himself, by himself. he found the light in a dark and terrifying situation and he became his own hero. cyron couldn't deny that knowing that he, alone, managed his escape left him feeling empowered and gave him hope that he could and would survive and endure. yet, still, he is curious and while she is being candid with him seeks to take advantage of it unsure if she would chose to be so openly honest with him again.