test my will, test my heart

Thistle tilted her ears back as she heard Ragnar’s voice and just as quickly as she had come and he had shown up she turned and began to ramble off. Yes Husband. Were her quiet words as she turned. Her husband could deal with all of this, she had to sort through a lot of things as it were. She did not want to be there when he accepted the boy, actually she didn’t want to be near anyone period, which was why she had left to begin with. She shouldn’t have met the boy at the borders when her irritation was so large, but she couldn’t just let him stand there all alone either. She regretted most of her words, but she also had not been fighting with him because of Ragnar. Yes her irritation had been plain for all to see, but the words he spoke irritated her further not the fact that he maybe her husbands or because she was mad at her husband. Granted yes he was the reason for her irritation, but words had already cut her mostly before and then Bragi had just cut deeper even without meaning to, even when he said nothing to her about her.

And yes she knew her husband was just a name to the boy, just as his mother was just a name to her, but he shouldn’t have said it. It wasn’t polite, granted she had been anything but polite too. She shook her head and kept walking ignoring the fact that they both were there lost in her own thoughts as she was. She had briefly wondered if he would call her back, but frankly didn’t care, she would apologize to them both later, right now she just wanted to find a quiet place and maybe sleep or maybe cry a little. She hated conflict always had, and now she had had two actually large fights in as many days and her heart hurt.