Lost Creek Hollow are you worth your weight in gold? cause youre behind [m]y eyelids when i'm all alone

he isn't a virgin, far from it actually, but this is a first in so many ways it's dizzying. overwhelmed by a dozen different emotions, he focuses on alamar; on his scent, the feeling of his soft fur between jaime's teeth, all the places he can kiss and nip and touch from this angle. he loves him, he realizes, though he knows even in this moment that he can never tell him. saying it would ruin what they are, what little they've managed to build between them. so he shows it instead, using the unexpected opportunity to express in reverent affection what he never can in words.