A Change of Pace

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"Wow, that area just sounds like it's back luck. I will steer clear of that location." And Hawkeye was telling the truth. I don't need to lose a limb to go along with my hearing, too. The dark wolf stayed quiet when Thistle spoke of her depression almost ruining her relationship, and that's why she allowed her husband to take another mate. Or, cheat. Briefly, Hawkeye wondered if Peregrine would have stuck around if she allowed him to take another, but she physically flinched at the thought. No fucking way that would have happened, she thought, disgusted at herself for even touching the thought.

After Thistle's words about Jinx and her mother being the midwife and healer of the Kesuks, she mumbled, "I wonder if she was any different when she lived with her family..." Hawkeye pictured the black-footed wolf being young and jovial and then scratched the thought from her mind. Perhaps she was a bit nicer at one point, but the dark she-wolf doubted that she had ever been innocent.

Hawkeye paused, unsure if she should reply to Thistle's words. "I do not judge you, even though I would only ever have one mate. But, I think you should think about your own happiness. You can't be happy just because you make others happy. You hesitate to say these positive things, and you only do so for your mate. You love him only... whereas, he is not satisfied with just you. He is not satisfied having pups with only you. What if he takes another? And another? Your happiness will drain, and then..." she paused, trying to fight back the tears that were beginning to fill her eyes and swallow her sight. "My mate left me because I was unhappy — not with him, but with what surrounded me. He left me, because I was depressed. What if you become depressed, and he leaves you for another mate? I don't want that happening to you. You took in my daughter. You have a large heart. You deserve better." Hawkeye said these things gently and passionately, letting her emotions, and even her tears, spill down her face while she became more and more choked up. She found that the world was infinitely unfair to those who had the biggest of hearts.