all I want is what I had

So Paarthurnax was dead. Though she knew that she should probably feel some sort of emotion following that revelation, instead it brought nothing. Perhaps they had been packmates once, but the healer meant nothing to her now. The news of Shadow's children was regrettable, but any sorrow was out of sympathy towards him. She had truly thought he would find happiness in his new role. "True. I guess neither of us found what we hoped," she observed. She did not say she was sorry for what had befallen him... He likely wanted pity no more than she did. At least he'd gotten one.

"As much as I hate charity, I don't think I have much of a choice." She gave a wry smile, a tad sour but her gaze softened a little. "Thanks. Consider it a loan, one day to be repaid." She would owe him a favor, one he could collect on as he saw fit. Despite their friendship, in her eyes, he still had no responsibility towards her and therefore no duty to help her. She would not expect him to put himself out and receive nothing.