Blacktail Deer Plateau My shadow falls against the wall

ooc: @Saena - I will keep the things that happen in threads with Blue Willow, Lasher and Dante vague, but you can assume that Saena already knows/has realized the fact herself that Osprey is with children.

Osprey had lost the track of time - days went by - each one of them like the other. The confusion and fear were her constant companions, making her unhappy and miserable. She did her best to stay away from the rest of the pack, do things to keep herself busy, to keep her mind away from returning to the thoughts of what would hapeen after these few weeks would be gone, when the kids would be about to be born.

She wished with all her heart that there was a tiny bit of happiness she had seen in Blue during her pregnancy. A bit of curious wondering and keen expecatation to see the little ones in this world. To have this sense of safety and knowing that everything would be alright. But there was none. She was terrified, she could not see these little beings that were said to grow inside her as living, feeling, thinking creatures.

She feared them, she didn't want them and every time she felt the tiny and light movements within, she was on verge of crying in despair. If there had been a way of telling them that this was not the world she wanted to bring them in, that there was nothing but lifelong suffering awaiting them here, she would have. And maybe they would listen and they would stop existing...

But she could not, whatever had begun weeks ago went on. There she was on the brink of the plateau's borders, lying on her belly and staring in the distance, tears soaking the fur on her cheeks wet.