Don't mess with this gang of killer wolves!

Because we failed the Weekly Hunt twice, we decided to make an actual pack activity to get some food in the bellies of our dearest BFW wolves! We will work in rounds again (Like the previous activity)! Post once in each round and you get 20 EXP! (Yay!) The ones who want to become a Gamekeeper can use this thread also for that trade. There is no positing order.

Round 2 starts Thursday 6th of August and they will move out. If your character didn't post in Round 1, your character will have to catch up with the pack. This pack activity is Mandatory, except for the ones who are injured/too young/on absence are excluded. The lives of BFW wolves hangs in the balance!

@Meldresi @Grimnir @Ayana @Cyn @Nemesis @Misty @Shego @Lakhesis (Excluded; Lusa, Peridot and Bladur. Also I don't know if @Ohen is back already? And if the Melonii Pups are back too? @Cicero @Potema @Damien I'd like to think they are back by now. But if that doesn't fit your timeline then that is fine too.)

Burke was getting a bit grumpy with the lack of food. After the storm he found quite a few floating carcasses that drowned in the rising water, but with a big wolf pack like Black Feather that meat was long gone and eaten by now. The rising swamp water had taken a lot of their caches away. Burke went to check on the few food storages they still had and he realized that they would need meat very soon. It didn't help that their last hunt was a complete and utter failure. They were assassins and spies! How could they not take down a damned deer or other prey animal? Burke decided that he needed to call all his good wolves and make sure they got home with a decent meal for all the members of this pack.

Burke decided to already scout the surroundings for prey but Black Feather was as good as empty. They would need to move out into their buffer zone. This part wasn't really patrolled or protected by the Black Feather wolves, but if there was a huge meal in that buffer zone Burke would make sure to chase every loner away from the neutral lands that were close to their borders. There was a good chance that the flocks moved out to greener areas just outside their lands, away from the foul swamp water. Burke stood by the border and let out a long demanding howl that echoed through their whole territory. He put in all his power into the howl so every wolf in his pack knew it was mandatory to show up to his call.

Burke let out a loud snort after his howl, he expected every wolf that could run, chase and bite to show up otherwise they might fail another hunt. He knew they couldn't hunt forever with an empty fuel tank. Burke found that it was his job too to provide for his pack, but he needed the help of his pack mates if he wanted to accomplish the big kill he had in mind. Once who didn't show would have some serious explaining to do.

A loud, intense howl woke Ayana up from her nap. Why would anyone howl as loud as that, seriously. She needed her sleep and if she didn't get that, her mood was as good as a dead deer's mood. But it was Burke who called, so it must be important. The golden female stood up and streched her muscles. She really was tired. And hungry. But sleep helped her to forget about her empty stomach for a while, now that she was awake she was aware of the big hole in her tummy again. Ayana let out a small grunt and started walking to where the howl came from.
The female noticed that there was a weird urgent undertone in the call, which worried her a little. What if something had happened? Well, good that you don't care about the pack.Or maybe Burke wants to kick you out? You'd deserve that. Or it was about her spy mission. The two wolves had a lesson a few days ago and Burke talked about something like a final quest so maybe this was it?
But he had called for everyone of the pack, so it must be a bigger thing concerning the whole pack?

Ayana decided to run a bit faster to reach Burke quickly. Soon she could smell him and locked his scent in her nose to follow it. The woods were slowly getting dry again, however, the storm had left his marks everywhere. Trees had fallen over and it seemed like all the animals were gone. Thinking about deers and rabbits, Ayana's tummy started to rumble again. She definitely was hungry.
Suddenly it came to her mind. Didn't packs hunt together sometimes? Maybe this was why Burke called. Ayana suddenly got all excited. This was a great opportunity to meet all the other wolves and maybe Lusa would be there so they could hunt together like two dark friends. Or Cicero, the male she had 'saved' in a way was there and she could ask him how he was doing. And Cyn would probably be there too, and ... Grimnir. Her mood darkened again. The whole pack would be there. Everyone. What a great day. But at least she'd get some food in her stomach and do something for the pack. She still owed the group something for letting her join and she felt like this was a great opportunity.

The golden female eventually reached Burke and greeted him friendly. "Hey Burke, what's the matter?", Ayana asked, although she already guessed that a hunt was the reason Burke had called. She sat down and waited for the rest of the pack to arrive.

Misty had been basking in what little sun shone through the trees when she heard Burke's howl. It had to be a hunt. They were getting a little low on prey. She jumped up and started heading in the direction the howl came from. She would finally get to show off her hunting skills and it would be her first hunt as a pack wolf. She would finally get to show Burke what she was made of and that she deserved to be in the pack.

Sure Cyn had a few rabbits the last few days, but that didn't satisfy her deep hunger for something bigger and with more fat. A howl pierced through the air. It was Burke! A meeting? Was it for food? Cyn looked up from the rabbit bones she had been playing with. Yes, Cyn was playing with the bones like she used to do when she was about 5 months old. She did this in her spare time and shaped them into different things. She stood up off off of the ground and avoided to bones as she started running to the alpha. Her stomach had growled fiercely hoping for a big animal.

She dodged trees and jumped over small shrubs just to get to him. Her body looked more stick like now. She had also lost some weight with not having enough food in her body. Cyn was also a foodie and loved to eat, so not having food was really getting to her. Sometimes she would have cravings that where never satisfied by one or two different small animals.

She saw Ayana already there asking Burke a question. She stayed farther away from the rest of the pack so she could get some space. She tried reading Ayana's lips like she would have to learn soon. Burke, what, and matter where the only words she could figure out. She went up and sat down a few feet away from them waiting for an explanation for the meeting.

Only a minute ago, Nemesis had woken from her nap. All the running around, meeting her packmates had excessively tired her out. She pushed her paws out in front of her, stretching her sore muscles. She hadn't exactly spent much time gathering bedding for a more comfortable sleep, instead quickly finding a bentbent over, hollowed out log, just enough to protect her from the elements. Good for you, you actually found a place to sleep. Now what? I bet that's all you could do, find a molded tree to rest. Good luck surviving in this pack, spoke her conscious. No. Today was not the day to fall into one of her "pity fits". Instead, her mind focused on her unconscious aching hunger. She set out, starting a light jog. She nose reached the breeze, hoping to catch the scent of prey nearby, but nothing caught her attention. She had remembered what Ayana said, the strom drove away most of the catch in the area. Growling, she ran faster, enjoying the feel of the air rushing through her fur. Suddenly, her ears perked up, a call howling on the wind. Burke. Her brows furrowed, it had to be a matter of importance for him to be calling not just her but everyone. She ran faster to meet the call.

When she arrived, she was not surprised to see that two females had already arrived, Misty and Ayana, there was another she had not fully met yet, Cyn. She walked nearer to Burke, addressing the burly male. "Hello Burke. Why do you call for me?" She asked, in the nicest way possible. She wondered since everyone seemed to be coming, if this was a pack hunt. "Hunting trip?" She sat down, acknowledging the three females. She only hoped that they could hunt soon, her stomach ached more by the second.

Her wounds were recovering quickly now that she was home. The familiar atmosphere of her dark haven had healing powers, and she was up and walking about in mere days after returning back to Blackfeather. Burke's prescence was helpful as well; with the tank by her side, she felt at peace, though secretly, she felt a small bit of yearning for Slade, her Dark Brother. He had slipped off after delivering her back to her domain, but she wished he had stayed. They needed him.

Now more than ever, despite the influx of wolves (all of them female, and all very close to Burke) in her pack, they were practically starving. The storm drove away the herds of prey it did not kill, and now they were feeling the effects.

She did not have to travel far to answer her mate's call. She was always lurking in the shadows behind him in one way or the other when she was not looking for her absentee children. Parting from the dark shroud, Meldresi pressed her body against Burke's nuzzling her muzzle through his scruff before taking her place close at his side. Her indigo eyes swept over the new arrivals. She knew Ayana — she and Burke accepted her not long after their mating, but the others were unfamiliar. Young. Meldresi had no doubt of Burke's loyalty to her, and her to him, but why wouldn't she be just a little suspicious? Her mate must have been lonely when she was gone...

But now wasn't the time for jealousy, her stomach reminded her. They needed to hunt.

 Round 3 starts around 8th of August. I'm on a holiday, and I will probably be online but if we are heading out then the round might start a day later. ;D

Burke watched how everyone arrived. He just greeted each wolf that came to him but didn't tell what they were going to do yet. He wasn't going to say it every time a wolf arrived. He would say it once. Slowly he realized that all of them were female. Well were were those males? And didn't the pups arrive back to BFW yet? That would need to be checked out after the hunt. Grimnir wasn't there too, while they would be hunting for /his/ injured mate. He wished he could discipline the wolf but he was never there. Burke was close to lighting up like a christmas tree when Meldresi arrived. He licked her back over her cheek and briefly nosed by her ear. The other girls probably hadn't seen Burke so affectionate, ever.

Burke stood and loved the fact that he had his Meldresi pressed against him. "Ladies!," he called out. "And my Dark Queen," he hummed with a fond smile on his face. He then cleared his throat. Because this wasn't getting him anywhere. "Our pack is close to having no food. We have a few puppies and their mother needs the right nutrients to feed them and heal her injury. Plus I believe that we are all pretty hungry. We will go after the biggest we can find. I know sometimes there is a big moose in our buffer zone. I'd like to go after one of those. Then all can eat as much as they want! If we can't find one of those then we will go after the biggest stag."

Burke knew it was risky, but maybe they were lucky and they would find one of those wanted prey in injured form. "Okay here is the plan. We all head out. Cyn, you are good at sneaking. So I want you to go around the prey and move it into our direction. Meldresi, maybe you can go with her to supervise? You still have your side and then you don't be harmed. Unless you want to join the chase. I'd like to do the chase with you three. Ayana, Misty, Nemesis, in the chase, watch out for its legs, especially with a moose. In the chase I want you to maim the creature as much as you can. Sink your teeth in it, but still drive it to me. I will move along with the chase but I will make the kill. I'm the heaviest here, so we need an instant snap of the neck if we want to succeed. Understood? Lets move out!," he spoke and then turned around and started running.

Burke kept a steady pace into the neutral part, the high grasses even made Burke do a hop in his step and he was ridiculously tall. He slowed down once he could close to a dip in the ground, so he had a better overview. There it was. In all its glory, one massive moose. Burke had set his hopes up high. Though it was manageable, slightly. He trusted they could do it.

All the other females were gathering around Burke and he seemed to enjoy all the female attention once everyone was there. Ayana greeted the others with a small nod. Cyn and Misty were there, the two girls that Ayana had a lesson with. They were no threat, so she could stop worrying. However the black female, Nemesis, caught Ayana's attention straight away. She seemed sassy, almosttoo sassy and Ayana did not like that. She was the little sassy one around here. But oh well, she would leave soon anyways to fulfill her mission to become a dark sister. She was extremely excited.
Burke treated Meldresi like a little child that saw his mother for the first time. The depth of his eyes was back and they were shining more than ever. He was really happy about her being home. Ayana felt something weird when looking at the two. She could feel the bond between them, it was obvious that they really liked each other. But it wasn't jealousy, rahter envy. She wanted this herself. She wanted to be loved and ...

Suddenly Burke said Ayana's name and her mind came back to reality. So yes, it was about hunting. And Ayana would have to chase a moose. She stood up and nodded to Burke. This was another chance to prove her loyalty to the pack. Ayana was not too sure if Meldresi trusted her yet, but she wanted her to. She was the dark Queen and Ayana had to obey to her.
Burke ran off and the others followed him. The grass was high and due to Ayana's small size, it was rather hard for her to keep up, but she did her best. She wanted to succeed today, and a little bit of grass would not stop her from that.

Eventually the wolves stopped running and Ayana spotted a big moose. It was bigger than she expected, she could not really imagine chasing it successfully, but she had two other wolves by her side. She was better at performing on her own, she preferred getting all the profit, but this moose was too big to be chased by just one wolf. She needed the others, which was a weird thing to confess. They would have to work as a team and everyone knew Ayana was not much of a teamplayer after all.

Misty's gaze shifted to the dark female beside Burke. So this was Meldresi. Well, it was obvious Burke worshiped her. His attitude had already improved a lot since she had returned. Misty was happy for them, and she didn't want to get on Meldresi's bad side. Her attention turned back to Burke as he announced that the 4 of them would be chasing the prey. She followed Burke and the others and slunk into the tall grass, crouching down and moving quickly but silently. Her white fur stuck out in the shadowed grass, but she made up for that disadvantage by being stealthy and quiet. This was her chance to prove herself to Burke and the others. To prove that she wasn't just a useless, shy wolf, but that she was a good hunter and she could be valuable to the pack. If she messed this up, there was no way Burke and Meldresi would allow her to stay in the pack. It was now or never.

Nemesis surveyed the group. It all seemed to be females and.. Burke. However, while the thought may have been pleasing to other males, Burke seemed to be caught up with the one he called his Queen, Meldresi. She intimidating and their personalities seemed to fit. Their display of affection and the look in Burke's eyes when he seen her, hit a pang of jealousy in her heart. Not of Burke, no. But their ability to love each other so infinitely made her wonder why she couldn't have that. Even a little love from her own parents would have made her a better soul. 
She shook her head of those thoughts, she didn't dwell on things she knew she wouldn't have.
Looking around again, her brows furrowed. Why had not the rest of Blackfeather's males taken part of the pack hunt, it was after all, a matter of importance. Surely, they would have to have a limited amount of the kill, freeloaders weren't welcome, in her opinion. But she did excuse Lusa, who she knew needed to recuperate after all that she had been through. 

Nemesis came back down to earth from her thoughts as they slowed down. She could see the moose, unaware that in the next few minutes it would be viciously torn and killed. Uncannily, she smiled at the thought, to see the beast before it's downfall was much more exciting. From the corner of her eye, she watched as that girl, Ayana, take her place. Nemesis wouldn't lie, she didn't like Ayana. But it wasn't like the feeling wasn't mutual. Something about her was just too untrustworthy.. and much to bold. But she carried on, she wasn't about to just judge the girl because of her outward expressions, there had to be something relatively nice deep inside.

Nemesis was to chase the moose, and she had no problem with it. She was strong yes, but she was fast. She surged forward, but not too close to cause suspicion to the moose.Looking  back, her eyes, spotted out  Misty and Ayana. She was ready to go, but she needed to work in a team, it is what Burke expected.

Cyn nodded and followed instructions. Sneak up to the moose. She followed behind Burke and saw the great sized moose. The horns were huge and the meat it had on it would be a sufficient amount for the pack. She felt the air in her fur like she had many times before. She went the way that the food wouldn't smell her, staying close to the ground. How would she get it to move closer to everyone else? She hoped Meldresi would have an idea to help her. Her mind went blank as she got closer to the animal and her more ferocious side came out. Cyn kept her stomach silent concentrating on the snack that was in front of her.

Meldresi practically basked in the physical love she was given by her mate, regardless if they were in public or not. Her tail wagged gently as his tongue slid over her cheek, a hum of approval rumbling in her throat. This contact had to be brief, for this was a meeting after all. Meldresi kept to Burke's side, observing the gathered females again. None of the males were here. Ohen, she had learned, had disappeared after the storm. Grimnir was no where to be seen, despite his concern for his children. Perhaps he thought he could hunt for himself. Her sons...like Ohen, they had disappeared, but the Night Queen scented traces of them here and there, fresh. They were still lurking, but for what reason, she had no idea.

Burke greeted the gathered hunters, instructing them on what they would be bringing down today. A moose. A risky kill, but absolutely necessary for the pack's wellbeing. "I will help as much as I can." It was her pack, after all. They needed this food more than she. With that said, the contingent of wolves loped off towards their buffer zone, Meldresi in the rear. Her injuries and age would prevent her from doing as much as the younger females, but she could still bite, couldn't she?

The moose was spotted in an instance, large and magnificent. Meldresi was almost awed by its size and presence. For a moment, she doubted their luck in bringing the creature down. They were four females and one big male. It would be tough. Meldresi whispered a prayer, invoking the Hunter Hircine through Mephala, before moving into the grass, a whisper in the foliage. While she couldn't chase, she could plant a trap for the moose, to help cut off its path when the younger females gave chase. Signaling to Burke, she moved ahead of the moose's position, keeping low and moving silently as only a Dark Sister could.

I kinda 'forgot' to start the next round. I blame holiday! I totally wanted everyone to have exp. 

Burke trusted Cyn to herd the Moose in the right direction, with these things they needed to be fierce, they knew they were bigger. Burke watched as Cyn sneaked to the Moose and have the others spread out to chase it down to his clutches and make it bleed. Burke stayed in the high grass. His coat working well with the shadows but also in the high grass. Even though he was grey, with a colorless eye sight most prey had it meant that he blended in well. 

He watched the hunt as they set out their positions. Once the moose would be charging towards them the three other girls could tire it out and chase it further. He hoped he was clear enough that the girl should basically eat it alive while running, or make it bleed badly. That way when the moose reached him he would make the kill. He couldn't wait to feast with Meldresi. He of course brought her small meals but this was going to be so much better. He had trust in the girls, and his girl. It was good Meldresi could supervise from behind. Her sneaking skills were perfect, and she could give him information about who worked the hardest.

Ayana's stamina was not the best, and this was the first time she noticed that. Her breath was slow and she could feel a sharp pain in her chest from all the cold air being breathed in so quickly. But there was no time to stop. The moose was being chased by Cyn right now and Ayana hid in the tall grass, which seemed to swallow her completely. The other female did a good job at chasing the moose to the other girls and Ayana noticed Meldresi sneaking through the grass a few meters near her. Suddenly the moose was near enough for Ayana to reach it with one jump and the golden female hurled from the grass. The moose saw her and for a second it seemed like the time froze. Ayana focussed on one of the animal's hind legs and her razor sharp teeth smoothly glided inside the soft flesh. She could taste the satifsying flavour of meat inside her mouth and if was an exteme relief. Finally she tasted blood again. She could not help but rip out a small piece of flesh from the moose's leg. The animal squeaked like a newborn puppy and a feeling of satisfaction was rising up inside Ayana.

Then the female focussed on the hunt again, Cyn was still chasing the now bleeding moose and Burke waited for his mission. He would kill the moose with one bite, probably. Although this was a very big moose... FOCUS. The female kept close to the moose's side, always making sure to hurt the animal with a few bites now and then. The thing was fast and Ayana felt extremely tired and sore, but succeeding was more important. The female decided to stay by the animal's side and make sure it would not run to the left, so the others could make some bites aswell to keep the animal injured and eventually slow it down.

With Ayana on the prey's left side and Nemesis behind it, Misty was assigned to stay on the animal's side so it would keep going straight, towards Burke. This is just like hunting with Leo and Raina. She thought to herself. I can do this. Just focus and don't mess up. Like Burke had said, Misty bit at the prey's right leg and stomach to keep it running. She noticed Ayana was starting to tire out whereas Misty was feeling fine. She wanted to ask if the she wolf needed her to do more of the maiming so Ayana could focus more of her energy on running, but she didn't want to distract anyone, so she stayed silent.

Cyn was now behind the unsuspecting moose. She walked out and the moose saw her. It ran toward the other girls who got it to Burke. Her job was fulfilled! Yes! She was worred for a little bit, but she had done it. Her tail swayed from side to side a little faster than normal as she waited for the alpha to get it. She almost jumped with joy as the feeling of being able to eat soon felt great. It would fill the empty pit in her stomach and make the headache from not eating in so long go away. The unscratchable feeling of her insides slowly eating themselves would also go away. She could not wait for the meat to fill her up. No more rabbits!

She did not play a large role in this hunt, but she did as best she could to herd the prey towards her husband. In place of marking the prey, she snapped her jaws in an attempt to bluff it, making herself seem like a hungry, wily beast ready to kill if this moose didn't go the right way. It was successful in the end, with her efforts closing the trap on this massive beast, sending it right into her mate's jaws — literally. She did not have to do much else afterwards, walking slowly after the moose, but ready to chase if it turned to early.

Round 4, and probably the past one. @Nemesis remember to post in this round so you can get 20EXP. :)

Burke was very proud of his pack members at leas they were wolves the pack could rely on. They were doing well. Burke was pleased to see that their plan was going well, the Moose might be healthy but it was still walking into a trap. Burke stayed low and once the Moose was close to trampling him he jumped up to its neck and clamped his teeth down. Blood stated to stream down his muzzle. The impact of the sudden 135 pound hanging on the moose's neck made it break on the moment of impact. The body stumbled down and stated convulsing with the after shocks of being dead. 

Burke made sure to hold his grip until he was sure that the animal wasn't alive anymore. Now the whole pack would have a decent male, but first, the alpha would eat. Burke made sure to open its belly and make his way to the nutrient organs. He did invite his mate to eat with him while she technically didn't have the rank to join him. Burke could do as he liked, and while the females did a good job there was still a pack order to maintain. The leader did make sure to not eat all the organs, it was impossible. The others could fight over it after he and Meldresi were done. 

Once they did he stepped aside and let the others have their share, but was very keen on the next moment. He secretly loved being groomed and surely Meldresi knew this, finally he could finish a meal without having blood dried in his fur. But first, he would make sure she was licked clean, ladies first after all. The alpha liked grooming her just as much as being groomed. Perfect to spend his time like this while the other females ate.

Sorry if this is out of context, I don't know if there's some sort of eating order or something..

Adrenaline surged through her veins as she chased the large animal. It was up until this point that she had detested the fact of hunting together, it was easier on her own and you didn't have to look out for anyone.  Having no experience in working with the pack, she felt nervous, having to rely on strangers and them rely on her. But the thrill of running alongside others clouded that judgment. 
Snapping at the beast's heels, she enticed it, but careful not to injure herself in the process. It was her instinct to inflict even more pain as she could on it, but that was not the mission. Chase, maim, feast!  She reminded herself. A display of her bloodlust was not what was needed right now.
After her turn was done, and Burke had brung the strong creature down, she licked her chops eager to bite down on the kill. She admired Burke's ability to bring down the moose so quickly, given it's size. But she had the feeling that Burke was stronger than the large animal, by much. Panting, she padded over to the rest of the pack waiting for her turn to feast. She knew that Burke and Meldresi would be the first to eat, and that the rest of them would pick over what was left. It didn't bother her as much as she thought it would, sharing her meal. To think it used to be just barely scraps was horrifying. Her old pack could have shared their kill, she now knew. But they chose not to, leading her to believe that they needed to give to those who actually needed it only. Long gone are those days, she thought to herself as she pulled away a bit of the moose for herself.

She looked on with approval as Burke brought down the magnificent beast singlehandedly, her tail wagging gently. That was her mate, nearly six years old and still bringing down large beasts without a sweat. With the prey's death throes stilling, Meldresi made her way to the kill, praying loudly over the body, for both Sithis and the newer members to hear. "May your journey to the Void be swift and may your majestic soul provide sport for our Blessed Brothers and Sisters in the Void who sit at the Dread Father's side." With the belly torn open, Meldresi pushed her way beside Burke, tearing into the organs and biting it as gracefully as a hungry wolf can be.

Taking her fill, the priestess took a good look at the carcass, a critical eye washing over its pelt and horns. "Do not make any other incisions into the body. We are going to skin the carcass." She declared. She could make use of the bones as well, and the skull would look impressive over their den after being sun bleached.

She followed her mate to the side, licking her mate's face as they groomed each other, her eyes narrowed with content. The little things, she realized, was what she missed most about being away from Burke. Sitting by his side, grooming him, bantering with him, plotting with him. She savored this moment, oblivious to the others, only focusing on her mate. She could never leave this again.

Misty nodded at Meldresi's orders and backed away. Being a lower ranking wolf, she had to let the higher ranked wolves do all the work and they got to eat first. Her ears perked as she heard a distant howl, a cry for help, coming from the direction of the Naagai Lowlands. Leo. He was howling to her. But why? As if in a trance, she started walking towards the Lowlands, oblivious to anything around her. Leo needed her. She needed to go help him. She cleared her head and turned back. "Burke. I'm gonna stay out tonight, kep an eye on the prey and weather conditions. I'll be back sometime tomorrow afternoon." with that she ran off towards the Lowlands, realizing how much trouble she would be in if Burke and Meldresi found out where she was really going and what she was doing, and especially that she lied to them. But, her friend needed her help. The pack wouldn't miss her for a day.....right?

Last post for me!

Cyn ate when her turn came and boy did she enjoy it. It was almost a better feeling than what she guessed love would feel like. If love doesn't work why not eat it away? She thought as a joke and almost laughed as her muzzle was in the flesh and meat of the now dead animal. She whispered a prayer to the gods as her stomach had been filled up by fresh meat. A smile found it's way to her face. Her eyes closed in pure bliss and continued to scrape the meat off the part that she had taken which was to the lower half of the animal. She backed away and groomed herself feeling lonely since she had nobody to help her take care of herself. A whine tried to escape from her mouth, but she kept it down. She had to stay strong or at least look like it to make her seem stronger for the alpha. She hid all of her loneliness just to seem tougher. One day that appearance would fade to show her true self.