Sunbeam Lair I'm a bad dream, a rad scene, a tad mean, but not afraid to take you out

AW! Though perhaps @Avannon?

Jolon padded slowly through his home. His leg felt like it was new, and he had eaten the leaves Asterr had wanted him to eat. Everything was going smoothly, if the air did not carry the scent of young. He wanted to see them so badly, but knew to keep away from the place they were located. It was not his place, he knew, not until he had proven himself or had died trying to do so. Silently he longed for a family, but realized Asterr would never let him mate with Avannon with winter on their doorstep and pups to take care of herself. She was the leader after all... Apparently her children meant more. Jolon still didn't get it- if he were to mate wouldn't his pups matter at all to his home? Maybe one of Asterr's children would become a traitor... wouldn't it have been the wrong choice to have worshiped them then? Children were equal in his eyes until they could think, act and speak for themselves.

He crossed the border but didn't go far- returning only half an hour later with a rabbit between his teeth. All this thinking had made him hungry, and it was time for a meal. 

Avannon had been taking a brief snooze in the shade of a tree outside the lair. Ears twitching she kicked out in her sleep and snarled loudly, loud enough in fact to wake her up. She opened her eyes panting, her gaze frantically darting around before she calmed her breathing and let her hackles lay flat. Her nose lifted into the air, and she sniffed hesitantly to see if there was a cause for her nightmare outside of her mind, say a twig snapping or a bird cawing. She desperately hoped it wasnt just her mind torturing her. Her ears laid flat against her head as she smelt nothing - wait. Jolon! a wave of relief and happiness surged through her and she jumped to her paws, ambling forward as she followed his scent. Catching him before he Hit the Lair, she bounded forward chuffing her presence quickly before she gently bumped into him, wary of his leg. She licked his ear and his cheek sniffing him in greeting "Hello Jolon." she said warmly, blue eyes gazing at him happily though if he looked close enough he would see the fear and brokenness inside them. She looked at the rabbit and grinned at him "Good catch! Leg feeling better then?" she asked.  It was then that she saw how deep in thought he was and she frowned, sitting down and leaning her head on his shoulder "What's the matter? Is it Asterr, or something else?" she asked softly, falling silent and relaxing as she felt the lift of his shoulders as he breathed.

Silver eyes flickered to rocks and the green that was slowly either dying or turning a vibrant orange or red. Autumn was perhaps his least favorite season- everything died. The only thing that it made him appreciate was his own life, and even that was not a good thing. He did not deserve a precious life, he found, not after all he had done. He had become what he hated most, and the only thing he could do was just "love" the pain away. Better was to just fuck it away, but he doubted Avannon would be up for that anytime soon. Damn... He cursed under his breath.

Hackles raised as a chuff and a greeting was sent his way, but they smoothed down as soon as Avannon revealed herself to him. He hardly moved as she bumped against him, his legs standing as strong as they had before. Asterr had done an amazing job at nursing him back to health, he had to admit. He lay the rabbit down and lifted his head to run his muzzle through his lover's neck fur. Silver met blue and Jolon could swear he saw something quite troubling in her pools of somewhat faked happiness, but decided not to comment on it. He assumed she was still pretty shocked after what had happened with Judas.

My leg's fine now... He voiced in a low, purring sound. He sighed at her question, removing himself from her slightly so that she could hear him better. It's a lot of things, sweety... He said in his bass-tone of voice. I-I just feel like I should be the one looking upon the new little dragons. I've been with Asterr for so long, and yet she resents me- and now she wants me to go on a mission to find Judas and his pack. I just don't want to leave you here alone... What if something happens to me? Who will protect you? My absence has already made you suffer before... Tears pricked in his eyes, but he raised his chin. He would not cry because of all this. He did not deserve to feel so strongly.

Concern was now mixed with a flash of anger and fear as Jolon told her not only of Asterr's mission, but of the fact that she would not allow Jolon near the baby dragons. Rasping her tongue over the side of his face a few times for comfort she shook her head " I dont know how far the scarring goes for Asterr, but im sure if you prove yourself once more to her you'll see the children soon enough. And as for the trip to find Judas? Im going with you. No buts allowed. I am sneaking out and going with you, for if it comes to fangs it shall be my own that pierce his flesh." she said, looking jolonj straight in the eyes. Now you could see the full amount of pain and suffering she had been through, for her eyes were filled with self loathing. An odd look came over her eyes "never should have let him near me, its my fault, im filthy now, soiled" she said and growled, head moving in a half lunge for her scarred hind end where she had torn at herself. Before she could bite herself she snapped back to reality and scooted away from Jolon, ashamed of her outburst "i..im sorry, you weren't meant to see that." she whined. Taking a deep breath she glanced back up at Jolon, her eyes looking at him hesitantly as if she were afraid to find fear and disgust in his oh so handsome face. What would she do if he was turned off by her outburst? What if she saw something she didnt want to see in the silver eyes of her lover? She would run. She would run and not turn back, for Ryujin wouldn't be her home if Jolon wasn't there. More the reason why she had to go with him. He couldn't take a whole pack by himself, they could hardly do it with the two of them either but maybe he'd have a chance to get away. "Im coming with you. You can't go alone, and besides it should be my right to bring him to punishment." she said again, though her tone was softer and more like herself.

His ears flattened at her words. Yeah, IF he proved to be worthy enough he would probably get to see the small dragons- but what if he died trying? He would go through fire for his home, but now he had something more dear to him than Asterr and the tribe. For Avannon he had to be here, and he frowned as she revealed that she was planning to go with him. He knew almost for sure that Asterr would not allow her to tag along- and neither would he. I forbid you to come along. He replied in a harsher voice. He had to keep it together. Besides, I am not going to be send to kill him. He followed with a shrug. He would only be conversing with the filth, probably escorting him to the tribe like Asterr had said. 

Her look alone was enough to know that she was not ready for such a mission. Self loathed, hints that she was not mentally stable for now. She had gone through a horrible event, and Jolon would not allow her to see the one who had started this all. It was bad enough that HE was the one going to be send away to look for the one that did this to his only love. He frowned again.

You are anything but- only if he had awakened children would you have been soiled. you are the purest thing I have ever seen. He said, quite concerned for her well-being as she pulled her head to her behind in a flash and a growl. Are you alright? He asked.

You are not coming with me- I'll bring the filth here for you to punish him. He repeated.

Avannon swallowed as he forbid her to come with him, trying to withold the urges to protest. Looking up at him she nodded opening her mouth to say she was fine, but instead crawling toward him and pressing her face into his chest with a whimper "No. Im not alright. I have these moments where i tear at my own flesh as if he is still there behind me.." she moaned her whole body sagging. His words about her being pure made her feel worse, but instead she looked up and smiled gently "Thank you.. I wish you weren't sent alone. He..he seems to change when you least expect it. Don't let your guard down, he is as nasty as Vector." she sighed accepting the fact that neither he nor Asterr would allow her to go. "Please..dont ...dont give your life. if he fights you, either kill him or run. I dont want to lose you Jolon" she pleaded, her heart racing at even the thought of losing her Dark furred lover.

He looked at her with a look that said "are you really" when she nodded, but was soon replaced with a rather shocked one. He blinked a few times before wrapping his head around her neck to comfort her. This only motivated him further to find the one who had done this to her. He bit his lip as she explained, lifting his head to look at her rear. He removed himself from her, stepping towards her abused behind with a worried look. He knew wounds could get infected, and he found it an uncomfortable thought that it could happen to wounds around her most precious area.He just hoped she wasn't thinking he was going to do anything to her, not if she didn't want him to.

I'm not sent alone- I have the stars to guide me. Home- far away- when you look at them you'll find me every night. He ignored her comment of Vector, still not very comfortable with the monster that had, for now, disappeared. He ran his muzzle through her fur on her back, if she hadn't moved away just yet and would let him, back to her neck. 

Killing him before he has suffered would not truly be my style, but if he brings my life in danger I'll be sure to do it. Jolon said with a tiny whimper, the thought of leaving for God knew how long making him sick. I'll be back before you know it...

As Jolon wrapped his head around her, she felt truly safe letting herself relax a bit more against him. He had stepped away far too soon for her liking and she almost protested when she noticed he was behind her. She stiffened a bit, but watched him her mind telling her to move away, to snap at him, but her heart knowing all too well that he wouldn't hurt her.  His words about the stars brought back memories of her night with Noctura, talking about beliefs and the stars. It made her sad, it seemed like everything changed as soon as she arrived. Bringing her attention back to Jolon she nodded "I'll think of you every night, and no matter how long you are gone, I'll wait for you. I'll be the brightest star ahead of you, guiding you home" she said softly. She closed her eyes as he ran his muzzle up her back and to her neck, and when he was there she turned her head slightly, so her fur pressed against his muzzle. "I will request that i be the one to punish him. I will bring it to Asterr's attention. I believe it is time she checked for any signs of children within me, though i haven't noticed myself" She said. "If he touches a single hair on you, I'll kill him myself" she said, her tone darkening slightly. Already feeling the pang of Loneliness within her heat at the thought of him leaving she whined "I'll be waiting" she said, her words a promise to him. She'd always wait, no matter what happened.

He noticed her tensing up, but was glad she trusted him so near to her violated flower. It wasn't like he was planning anything nasty, he just wished to see how bad her wounds were. He bit his lip and thought of telling this to Asterr so she could treat his lover's wounds, but he didn't really know if it was a secret. He was very serious about keeping secrets, especially Avannon's. As long as she did nothing to ruin his loyalty, all secrets told to him would be stored in his mind but never in his mouth. It was a weight he was willing to carry, not only to be a good wolf, but a good lover.

Her words calmed him down slightly, realizing she'd be safe here. This was home, for now, and he'd always return if that meant seeing Avannon again. Nervous butterflies tickled his belly in a painful manner, tail twitching. Every second brought him closer to leaving, even hour brought him closer to not seeing her again. He bit his lip, leaning slightly on her for stability and warmth. This he would miss the most. He would miss it so very much.

If your next heat comes before I'm back stay within the borders- here, no one will hurt you... He wasn't sure how long he'd have to stay away to find Judas and his pack, but the other male's scent was engraved in his mind. He'd find him, even if that meant missing the chance to plant his seed in his only lover. He trusted her that she would not mess around with any other male.

They pressed closer, and she savored the moment as she knew time was ticking away. So soon would he be gone from her side, so she pressed her muzzle into the side of his neck breathing in his scent deeply committing it to memory. He brought up the subject of her next heat, and she had a brief moment of it has to happen again? before she sighed and nodded "It was a foolish mistake i wont make again. Dont worry about anyone else claiming me, nobody will get close enough to me in my heat unless its you" she said her tail swishing against the ground. She touchd her nose to his, and slowly ran it down the side of his throat to his chest, wishing it all to be over already.

Jolon didn't know what would've happened if he had refused to go on his mission. He assumed Asterr would be more mad at him than she was before, and he was definetly trying to avoid that. Besides, Ryuijin was his home. The least thing he could do was get revenge on someone who had traumatized one if their members- his very girlfriend. At least, Jolon thought of her as "girlfriend". As soon as he was back, victorious or not, he'd ask Asterr if they could become mates. And if she didn't want them to be, well, the most logical option for him was to find a place where they could indeed be mates. 

He cherished the moment while it lasted, but knew that he soon had to go. He needed all the rest he could have before his big adventure. For now though, he kept silent, keeping Avannon tightly against him as they snuggled. 

A small whimper left Avannon's mouth and she parted her body from his, blue eyes peering up into his. A faux smile of bravery tugged at Avanon's maw and she licked him right across the muzzle "It's time for you to sleep. You have a journey ahead of you, my love. You need your strength" she said, her words strong but full of sadness as she nudged him. "I'll walk you back. Might  sleep next to you?" she asked her eyes never leaving his face. If they slept next to each other, suspicions might arise, but tonight was very well possiby the last they would spend near each other, and she didnt care what other thought.

Could you wrap it up with your post? You can pp Jolon a bit :)

He was concerned of why she whimpered, but shortly after realized that she was deeply in love with him, and so it probably pained her to let him go. It felt the same for him, but after the whole thing with Vector he hid his emotions much better. The slightest drop of conflict in his system could turn him into a raging monster again, and that was not something he found very pleasant. I know... He let out with a sigh, not pleased with going to bed early. The next words pleased him way more, and his face lit up. Never had he slept next to a woman, and with Avannon it was something even more special. 

Of course. He answered with a slight blush, turning to lead them to his den. 

//of course! last post and i'll Archive it.



Avannon walked slowly drawing out there time together as much as possible. Soon however, they were back in camp. Gracefully sliding down the hill to the lair she found a spot away from others and lay down, letting out a happy sigh as Jolon's body soon lay next to hers. She curled against his side, her head resting across his back where she licked him, uttering "Goodnight Jolon" before she squirmed a bit and fell asleep to the comforting feeling of Jolon's breathing.