Redhawk Caldera breaking the habit

Pantaleimon's expression fell when Peregrine said that he was not good company right now, and that he should head back to his family. Of course he should head back to his family. What a silly thought, Pan thought to herself, to think that he might want to spend time with a weird, stammering fool. "I uhm, I understand," Pan mumbled while she looked away, trying to swallow her disappointment and the bitter feeling of rejection.

Peregrine suddenly looked old when he rose to leave, and Pantaleimon felt guilty for feeling the way she did, for selfishly wanting him to be here with her rather than with his family, where he belonged.

Wordlessly, Pantaleimon accepted the last nuzzle in the side of her neck. A shiver ran down her spine while she watched Peregrine leave, remaining where she was in silent acceptance of his departure. When he had left, Pantaleimon suddenly felt empty. Reek had found a mate and was settling down, and Peregrine already had a mate and children to go to. And there she sat in silence, all alone, when all she really longed for was the company of one of these wolves.