Redhawk Caldera damaged

Pan really wanted to keep up the charade and keep lying, but it was hard when Perry seemed to finally be grasping what she was trying to explain him for some time now. She was afraid to lose him, and even when he said it out loud, it sounded like he was talking about someone stupid, someone confused. It was so easy to believe her own lies.

Pan sighed and admitted: "Yeah, I guess I have." Even though she didn't really want to. She didn't want it to be like this. "But I... That's not something I can... y'know, change." So maybe it was time to look forward instead. "So maybe I should -- I could -- work harder to accept what I can't change. Maybe I just need time to... Need to stop thinking like this." And stop feeling like this. Pan accepted most things in her life so easily that this should theoretically not be all that hard, should it? She really wanted to change, if not only for Perry and for her life in Redhawk Caldera. She didn't want to lose this life.

She didn't want to lose him.