Phoenix Maplewood Before the fire is lit

His thoughts continue to wonder around negative ideas. He felt as if he was doomed from the start. He wasn't taught anything useful in his old pack and wasn't sure why his parents never tried. He was so far behind in needed experience that it felt a little normal that he was called useless, a nobody. Esaro didn't want to believe those words were true. He wanted to believe he was just as special as the others just like his parents did. Reality was giving the facts that would prove that he really was as good as non-existent.

Luckily his mind got distracted by an approaching member. But the first thing he wanted to do was get up and change location, he wasn't really in the mood to see someone else. When he realized who came he figured that there are exceptions. He felt comfortable enough to let Spring be around him, in fact he felt a little better just to see her.

She was concern about him, which was normal, he wasn't really trying to hide his emotions but it was more like he couldn't.

"I don't think I should have come here and tried to be part of a pack. I'm a nobody, I don't really provide anything to the pack even if I tried. I'm worthless." He said, expressing what was on his mind right now. He continued to lay there on the ground. At the very least he was looking at her and didn't mind her being here.