Sunbeam Lair Arts and crafts, but with a body

@Menta , this takes place before Asterr returns.

His nights were spent awake and suffering, the pain he was feeling both in his heart and limb unbearable and the empty space between him and a loved one thick with smoke. He often thought of jumping off the mountain if Asterr did not return-or worse; pregnant with a loner. He didn't want to live this life anymore if no one was willing to live it with him. Life wasn't a solo-game and he was a party player. But, he was placed without gear nor weapon in this cruel game where all the odds were against him. He wanted to disappear so that no one could hear him screaming as he made his last breath, but with this limp he couldn't go far enough. Then again, if he could get to the roof, he could jump off.

He didn't know what to do anymore, as everyone in his head was screaming too loud to understand. He moved his head to his shoulder. He was so hungry, both for love and food, enough to make him bite into his own flesh. It hurt, but it was nothing against the pain he was feeling inside. He felt his own blood fill his mouth, his tongue feeling numb as only a small piece came off of him. Soon the pain was bad enough for him to stop, licking up the blood that was dripping out the fresh wound he had just created himself-thinking to himself what in God's name he was doing.