Flycatcher Downs if i ever leave, i could learn to miss you

and then he finally finds out he'd been misunderstood. the realization settles on him like a brick in his chest, crushing his lungs in an instant. he tries not to let it hurt, tries not to let it show, but his heart has always bled easily and far too visibly. he'd been hopeful, despite everything — but he'd messed it all up with his awkwardness. his gaze settles on alamar for a few moments, sad and weary despite his efforts to hide it.