Sweet Misery

It was a difficult change, going from a pack filled with family to one of strangers. Everything seemed new and foreign, but the mountain's company both comforted and haunted her. As the weather became colder her coat grew in thicker, hiding her lean build. During the warmer months she had felt vulnerable, without the bluff of thick fur. But now her shed pelt began growing back, easing her nerves. But even with the comfort there was still a worry that she had betrayed her former packmates, by joining this group. Should she try harder to find them? Was it even possible?

By now they had probably moved far-off, there was certainly no point in trying. And if they truly needed her, they would have stayed a little longer. No, it was useless to talk herself into being against them. More bears probably lurked in the area, by staying they threatened the whole pack. Even to her friends it was probably not worth putting themselves in danger for just one wolf, besides they had newborns on the way and a couple of pups to look after. Did her siblings, mother, and father miss her? Perhaps they had simply got over it, maybe that was for the best.

Aurelie wanted them sobbing, and at the same time didn't. The wolfess wished to be missed and at the same time did not want her kin to be upset. Plus she was currently in a very suitable place, why not be grateful for what she did still have? A small gust of wind broke her reverie, as it swept over her thickening layers of hair. Sitting upright she faced the sun, the snow phantom basked in illuminating rays. Despite her wishes this was her new home, and that would have to be accepted eventually. It was best to start early, to ease the transition.