Deep in the heart of a never-knowing

Blue herself was torn as to why she wanted him here. At their last meeting he had hurt her badly to say the least. Granted perhaps she had deserved it, after all she had told him it was his fault that his daughter had tried to kill herself. And she imagined that no one would take that news very well. She imagined it was a way of life, to grow apart from those you loved, but she had never thought she'd lose her best friend in time.

Blue frowned and spoke softly Because I thought you were gone like Atticus and Crete and even Peregrine. That I would possibly never see you again. That you could be hurt and dying and I could do nothing ,because I had been selfish for once in my life. I thought maybe because I had been selfish, then I would have to have you taken away. Blue tilted her head to look down, she hadn't meant to voice so much, but it was the way of it. When she started talking she usually just let it all out. She had no regrets for her children, but she could not deny that her choice had been selfish. She had always wanted children and she finally had that dream.