we won't let them break our spirits

for @Kesuk !

Onyx had spent some time thinking about a certain feeling she'd felt... It had only happened around two wolves, one more so then the other. Her heart had fluttered excitedly in her chest like a caged bird, and she'd felt drawn to them.
It was sort of like what she'd felt for Mama, but somewhat different. And she wanted to cuddle with them, and watch the stars, and spend time together. What was it?!
Now, Onyx had been taught of love. But when she had asked Mama, what is it? Raven had told her it was what drew one to another. There were three kinds- family love, friend love, and romantic love. Family love was what Onyx had for Mama- but Mama had explained the other two. Friend love was made you want to hang out with them, someone you could trust with your secrets who trusted you with theirs. And romantic love was what drew a man to a woman. She hadn't gone much deeper than that- love was a hard concept for such a little girl. But now she did not recognize it, partly because Raven had said man to a woman- and Onyx was not attracted to men.
Her heart longed to see the two she had felt like this towards. The one she liked best was Leila. But Leila was far, far away. Onyx imagined up her beautiful minty eyes, then reminded herself of the other. The other she hadn't thought was as pretty as Leila, yet still beautiful. Kesuk, who was closer, in Blacktail Deer Plateau. Although she had spoke of a mate, Onyx was still drawn to her. So today she reached the borders. She thought about howling, but that would bring too much attention to her. Instead she backed up several feet and waited till Kesuk would happen to find her.