Redhawk Caldera Exes and ohs

Pan insisted it would be a sham. Peregrine knew he truly believed this, though he believed that, given time and opportunity, Pan could let go of his feelings for Peregrine and find love in someone new. For reasons unknown, the Alpha did not presently consider that his lover could have his cake and eat it too, just like he himself did. He was too caught up in feeling certain he wasn't giving Pan the life and love he deserved.

"Yes," the Alpha answered honestly when questioned. "I love you too," he repeated. It could never be said enough. "I want you to stay in my life and I hope you do, whether it's as lovers or friends," he said, thinking briefly of his breakup with Lasher. "I want you to be happy. That's what I'm saying. I'm wondering if you'd be happier if you and I took a step back and you had the time and ability to find someone who can be more dedicated to you." He hoped that made sense. "Because that's what you deserve."

Peregrine touched nose to the Gamma's shoulder. He didn't want to hurt Pan. He sincerely wanted him to be happy and to have whatever he wanted from life. The Alpha knew this included children. Even if Pan didn't agree with him today (or ever) that he wasn't worth that kind of sacrifice, he wanted to make sure they at least talked about this. And maybe there was a compromise somewhere in there that he just couldn't see right at the moment.