Swiftcurrent Creek redrum

Jace saw the pity on her face and revulsion for that forced it's way into his stomach and like bile it brimmed up through his throat a burning aching need to tell her not to pity him it was not so bad. "no need to pity me Bazi it is not so very bad I can protect all of you and that is fine by me and I may burn out one day but if I saved at least one of you it's okay. Not that you need it. he added the last as an afterthought realizing that his words may offend.

Jace studied her for a moment and spoke again I do not know from personal experience I can only go on what my father has said, and my own personal assumptions. However, my father fixated on his sister that is how he would overcome in the end if he thought about her it would calm him down. Which I am working on that. However, the reason my father did what he did was because someone found out his weakness where his sister was concerned and used it against him. They would threaten grave harm to her so he would do what was wanted. Someone could necessarily do that to me too. Also I am a duty bound wolf Bazi and loyal and if I fall over the edge of madness well then yes someone could use me for darkness if they have my loyalty. He shrugged he was working on controlling his condition with Ferdie's help and so far he had good results...he was using the creek wolves to bring him back down trying to forge friendships so it would be easier to fixate on them though it sounded obsessive and weird to put that into words in his own mind at least.