Bearclaw Valley the specular thought brought on oneself:

Of course the story is a tantalizing one. She understands Blondine's reaction even as she shift uncomfortably. "Well," Poet says, looking anywhere but her friend's face, "there are blasphemies, and then there is Blasphemy." 

She takes a deep breath. "I killed her," she says, letting the words go the way one would cast ash to the wind. There is no way to deliver such a line delicately, and she still cannot bring herself to look at Blondine's face. She has not spoken the truth aloud. But now she has and the full weight of her actions presses on her once more, threatening to drag her under.